Of course she spoke without knowing the value of words. What could she
know of death—she who knew nothing of life? It was merely as the proof
of her being beside herself with some odious apprehension, that this
extraordinary speech had moved me, not to pity, but to a fascinated,
horrified wonder. I had no idea what notion she had of her danger. Some
sort of abduction. It was quite possible with the talk of that atrocious
old woman. Perhaps she thought she could be carried off, bound hand and
foot and even gagged. At that surmise I felt as if the door of a furnace
had been opened in front of me.
“Upon my honour!” I cried. “You shall end by going crazy if you listen
to that abominable old aunt of yours—”
I studied her haggard expression, her trembling lips. Her cheeks even
seemed sunk a little. But how I, the associate of her disreputable
father, the “lowest of the low” from the criminal Europe, could manage to
reassure her I had no conception. She was exasperating.
“Heavens and earth! What do you think I can do?”
“I don’t know.”
Her chin certainly trembled. And she was looking at me with extreme
attention. I made a step nearer to her chair.
“I shall do nothing. I promise you that. Will that do? Do you
understand? I shall do nothing whatever, of any kind; and the day after
to-morrow I shall be gone.”
What else could I have said? She seemed to drink in my words with the
thirsty avidity with which she had emptied the glass of water. She
whispered tremulously, in that touching tone I had heard once before on
her lips, and which thrilled me again with the same emotion:
“I would believe you. But what about papa—”
“He be hanged!” My emotion betrayed itself by the brutality of my tone.
“I’ve had enough of your papa. Are you so stupid as to imagine that I am
frightened of him? He can’t make me do anything.”
All that sounded feeble to me in the face of her ignorance. But I must
conclude that the “accent of sincerity” has, as some people say, a really
irresistible power. The effect was far beyond my hopes,—and even beyond
my conception. To watch the change in the girl was like watching a
miracle—the gradual but swift relaxation of her tense glance, of her
stiffened muscles, of every fibre of her body. That black, fixed stare
into which I had read a tragic meaning more than once, in which I had
found a sombre seduction, was perfectly empty now, void of all
consciousness whatever, and not even aware any longer of my presence; it
had become a little sleepy, in the Jacobus fashion.
But, man being a perverse animal, instead of rejoicing at my complete
success, I beheld it with astounded and indignant eyes. There was
something cynical in that unconcealed alteration, the true Jacobus
shamelessness. I felt as though I had been cheated in some rather
complicated deal into which I had entered against my better judgment.
Yes, cheated without any regard for, at least, the forms of decency.
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