With an easy, indolent, and in its indolence supple, feline movement, she
rose from the chair, so provokingly ignoring me now, that for very rage I
held my ground within less than a foot of her. Leisurely and tranquil,
behaving right before me with the ease of a person alone in a room, she
extended her beautiful arms, with her hands clenched, her body swaying,
her head thrown back a little, revelling contemptuously in a sense of
relief, easing her limbs in freedom after all these days of crouching,
motionless poses when she had been so furious and so afraid.
All this with supreme indifference, incredible, offensive, exasperating,
like ingratitude doubled with treachery.
I ought to have been flattered, perhaps, but, on the contrary, my anger
grew; her movement to pass by me as if I were a wooden post or a piece of
furniture, that unconcerned movement brought it to a head.
I won’t say I did not know what I was doing, but, certainly, cool
reflection had nothing to do with the circumstance that next moment both
my arms were round her waist. It was an impulsive action, as one
snatches at something falling or escaping; and it had no hypocritical
gentleness about it either. She had no time to make a sound, and the
first kiss I planted on her closed lips was vicious enough to have been a
bite.
She did not resist, and of course I did not stop at one. She let me go
on, not as if she were inanimate—I felt her there, close against me,
young, full of vigour, of life, a strong desirable creature, but as if
she did not care in the least, in the absolute assurance of her safety,
what I did or left undone. Our faces brought close together in this
storm of haphazard caresses, her big, black, wide-open eyes looked into
mine without the girl appearing either angry or pleased or moved in any
way. In that steady gaze which seemed impersonally to watch my madness I
could detect a slight surprise, perhaps—nothing more. I showered kisses
upon her face and there did not seem to be any reason why this should not
go on for ever.
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