All the blood seems to rush from Lauraine's heart to her face at this
insult. She confronts him with a passion of indignation. "How
_dare_ you?" she cries; and then something seems to rise in her
throat and choke her. The utter futility of words--the sense of her
own imprudence--confront her like a barrier to the belief she would
invoke. He sees he has stung her now almost beyond endurance, and
the knowledge rouses all that is worst in him, and prompts but
further outrage. That his own wrong-doing is discovered, that
another woman has fallen where she--his wife--stood firm, are but
added incentives to his jealous fury and defeated ends.
"How _dare_ I? You will find that I dare more than that, madam. I
think you would not look much better than I if we had a 'show up,'
and as I live, if you insult Lady Jean I will institute proceedings
against you--with Keith Athelstone as co-respondent."
And he leaves the room with a brutal laugh.
Lauraine stands there as if turned to stone. For the first time she
feels how powerless she is--how helpless is any woman when the man
who has sworn to protect and honour her, turns round on her and
insults her with the very weakness he is bound to respect.
She knows her husband is not faithful, that the very presence of this
woman beneath her roof is an outrage to all decency and morality, and
yet if she opposes that presence, she herself is threatened with a
life-long injury; nay, more, Keith will be dragged in to shield the
sharer of this flagrant guilt, which is before her very eyes, and
which she seems powerless to resent. She grows desperate as she
thinks of it--as she looks at the case from every side, and yet sees
no way of escape or justice.
Of what use is innocence to a woman whose name is before the world,
and dragged through the mire of public inquiry? A thousand tongues
will chatter, a thousand scandals fly, to be magnified and retailed
and charged with vile suspicions. She will be a public sport, a
public shame. And Lauraine knew that this would be her portion if
she did not agree to hide the guilt of another woman, and tacitly
accept the charge laid against herself. As she thought of it, all
that was best and purest in her nature rose in revolt. All the
courage and strength that had given her power to resist her lover,
seemed to array themselves against the brutal tyranny and shameful
outrage she had been bidden to accept.
"I will not do it; I _will_ not!" she cries aloud, as she paces to
and fro her room. "After all I am rightly punished. I was false to
him, and it was wrong to allow him to be so much with me, once I knew
he loved me still. Now, whichever way I look at it, there seems
nothing but shame and dishonour."
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