Amnesiacs -- Fiction; New York (State) -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Trials -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
As far as those of her own group were concerned, there was no life.
All mingling with the Bunch was over. Life, then, would mean social
cliques and women's clubs, more or less boss controlled, politically
influenced, "run" by one or two personalities, powerful in prestige
but prejudiced and limited as to opportunity or progress. In such
gatherings the girl instinctively felt there could be nothing
constructive for her; the chemistry of these organizations was
controlled by the acids of personal dislike or preference, or jealousy.
Little careful nothings of possessions or dress were the intellectual
meat of these associations, the inhibitions of the mentally torpid or
the censorious attitude of the unimaginative virtuous. None of these
things attracted a girl of Sard's impulse, a soul that demanded
fine contacts, the eager mingling of men and women in associations
of tolerance and forward looking, the stimulus of persons of vivid
experience. Sard mentally said "No" to it all.
Yet it was characteristic of her inherent nobility that she should
attempt to force herself to an interest in these home matters, to
attempt to form herself humbly on that narrow model. "It isn't nice
to be choosy and exclusive," thought the girl; "real people are never
that. I mustn't be 'superior,' whatever I do." She bent puzzled brows.
"What would Colter have thought to be the right thing, to stay here and
grow smaller and more timid and with less fresh impulse, or to break
away, earn my own living, and, from Father's point of view, forfeit my
right to my home?" "Ah! what would Colter think?" That was the sentence
that dominated all Sard's life now.
From under her pillow the girl drew a letter from Watts
Shipman--eagerly her eye sought one passage--one she had read and
reread:
"I must not tell you all the circumstances, they are not mine to tell.
Colter will want to tell you himself, but I have been able to help a
little and I am rejoiced for the man you helped to save. Our friend
Colter has surely come into his own, Miss Sard, and it is rather a
magnificent Own. I do congratulate you on your discrimination in
tramps. I suspect you have created a tradition that will some day be
like a final degree. 'In 19-- he was discovered by Miss Sard Bogart,
which justified his previous achievements in a blaze of glory. Forgive
me for being enigmatic. Courage! Miss Winged Victory, that you may be
happy in a parlous world is the deep wish of your true friend,
"WATTS SHIPMAN."
Sard went over it hungrily for the hundredth time. She knew this
paragraph by heart; it swept her with impatient excitement. Why was it
all so obscure? Why was so little told her? Had Colter really found
himself? What was that real self? The girl's heart stood still; perhaps
since Watts wrote this something had happened....
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