American fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, American
I have never known just how the next moments went. She recognized me
instantly, and evidently to her dismay. I know that before I could shape
my lips to any words that should be spoken, she had had time to sit down
and to suggest, by some motion of her hand, that I should do the same.
I did not sit; I stood before her. It was only when she began some
phrase of conventional surprise at seeing me in that place of all places
that I found speech. I made nothing of it; I had no solution; yet my
message seemed too urgent for delay. All that I had suffered in my so
faint connection with Filippo Upcher’s tragedy returned to me in one
envenomed pang. I fear that I wanted most, at the moment, to pass that
pang on to the woman before me. My old impatience of her type, her cheap
mysteriousness, her purposeless inscrutability possessed me. I do not
defend my mood; I only give it to you as it was. I have often noticed
that crucial moments are appallingly simple to live through. The brain
constructs the labyrinth afterwards. All perplexities were merged for me
just then in that one desire--to speak, to wound her. But my task was
not easy, and I have never been proud of the fashion of its performance.
“Mrs. Wace” (even the subtle van Vreck could not have explained why I
did not give her her own name), “is it possible--but I pray Heaven it
is--that you don’t know?”
“Know?” It was the voice of a stone sphinx.
“How can I tell you--how can I tell you?”
“What?”
“About Filippo.”
“Filippo?”
“Yes, Filippo! That he is dead.”
“Dead?” The carved monosyllables were maddening.
“Yes--killed. Tried, sentenced, _executed_.”
Her left hand dropped limply from the lace at her throat to a ruffle of
her dress. “For what?” Her voice vibrated for the first time.
“For murdering you.”
“Me?” She seemed unable to take it in.
“You must have seen the papers.”
“I have seen no papers. Does one leave the world as utterly as I have
left it, to read newspapers? On a lonely ranch like this”--she broke
off. “I haven’t so much as seen one for five months. I--I--” Then she
pulled herself together. “Tell me. This is some horrid farce. What do
you mean? For God’s sake, man, tell me!”
She sat back to hear.
I cannot remember the words in which I told her. I sketched the thing
for her--the original mystery, breaking out at last into open scandal
when the dismembered body was found; the evidence (such of it as I could
bring myself to utter in the presence of that so implicated figure); the
course of the trial; Filippo’s wretched defence; the verdict; the
horrid, inevitable result. My bitterness grew with the story, but I held
myself resolutely to a tone of pity. After all--it shot across my
mind--Filippo Upcher had perhaps in the grave found peace.
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