Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Love stories; Mate selection -- Fiction
would gather herself up like a princess on trial for treason,
remanded to prison,—and she would march to your door. Once she’s
within it, it’s your own affair. That’s what I can do. Now what can
you do? Come, something handsome!”
Fenton spoke loud and fast, as if to outstrip self-contempt. Roger
listened amazedly to this tissue of falsity, impudence, and greed,
and at last, as Fenton paused, and he seemed to see Nora’s very image
turning away with a shudder, his disgust broke forth. “Upon my word,
sir,” he cried, “you go too far; you ask too much. Nora in love with
you,—you, who haven’t the grace even to lie decently! Tell me she’s
ill, she’s lost, she’s dead; but don’t tell me she can look at you
without horror!”
Fenton rose and stood for a moment, glaring with anger at his useless
self-exposure. For an instant, Roger expected a tussle. But Fenton
deemed that he could deal harder vengeance than by his fists. “Very
good!” he cried. “You have chosen. I don’t mind your words; you’re
an ass at best, and of course you are twenty times an ass when you
are put out by a disagreeable truth. But you are not such a fool, I
guess, as not to repent!” And Fenton made a rather braver exit than
you might have expected.
Roger’s recent vigil with Mrs. Keith had been dismal enough; but he
was yet to learn that a sleepless night may contain deeper
possibilities of suffering. He had flung back Fenton’s words, but
they returned to the charge. When once the gate is opened to
self-torture, the whole army of fiends files in. Before morning he
had fairly out-Fentoned Fenton. There was no discretion in his own
love; why should there be in Nora’s? We love as we must, not as we
should; and she, poor girl, might have bowed to the common law. In
the morning he slept awhile for weariness, but he awoke to a world of
agitation. If Fenton’s tale was true, and if, at Mrs. Keith’s
instigation, his own suspicions had done Hubert wrong, he would go to
Hubert, pour out his woes, and demand aid and comfort. He must move
to find rest. Hubert’s lodging was far up town; Roger started on
foot. The weather was perfect; one of those happy days of February
which seem to snatch a mood from May,—a day when any sorrow is twice
a sorrow. The winter was melting and trickling; you heard on all
sides, in the still sunshine, the raising of windows; on the edges of
opposing house-tops rested a vault of vernal blue. Where was she
hidden, in the vast bright city? The streets and crowds and houses
that concealed her seemed hideous. He would have beggared himself
for the sound of her voice, though her words might damn him. When at
last he reached Hubert’s dwelling, a sudden sense of all that he
risked checked his steps. Hubert, after all, and Hubert alone, was a
possible rival, and it would be sad work to put the torch into his
hands! So he turned heavily back to the Fifth Avenue and kept his
way to the Park. Here, for some time he walked about, heeding,
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