What Will He Do with It? — Volume 09Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
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What Will He Do with It? — Volume 09
Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
English fiction -- 19th century
Twice she began-twice voice failed her. At last her words came forth
audibly. She began with her plea for Lionel and Sophy, and gathered
boldness by her zeal on their behalf. She proceeded to vindicate her own
motives-to acquit herself of his harsh charge. She scheme for his
degradation! She had been too carried away by her desire to promote his
happiness--to guard him from the possibility of a self-reproach. At
first he listened to her with haughty calmness; merely saying, in
reference to Sophy and Lionel, "I have nothing to add or to alter in the
resolution I have communicated to Lionel." But when she thus insensibly
mingled their cause with her own, his impatience broke out. "My
happiness? Oh! well have you proved the sincerity with which you schemed
for that! Save me from self-reproach--me! Has Lady Montfort so wholly
forgotten that she was once Caroline Lyndsay that she can assume the part
of a warning angel against the terrors of self-reproach?"
"Ah!" she murmured faintly, "can you suppose, however fickle and
thankless I may seem to you--"
"Seem!" he repeated.
"Seem!" she said again, but meekly--"seem, and seem justly;--yet can you
suppose that when I became free to utter my remorse--to speak of
gratitude, of reverence--I was insincere? Darrell, Darrell, you cannot
think so! That letter which reached you abroad nearly a year ago, in
which I laid my pride of woman at your feet, as I lay it now in coming
here--that letter, in which I asked if it were impossible for you to
pardon, too late for me to atone--was written on my knees. It was the
outburst of my very heart. Nay, nay, hear me out. Do not imagine that I
would again obtrude a hope so contemptuously crushed!" (a deep blush came
over her cheek.) "I blame you not, nor, let me say it, did your severity
bring that shame which I might have justly felt had I so written to any
man on earth but you--you, so reverenced from my infancy, that--"
"Ay," interrupted Darrell fiercely, "ay, do not fear that I should
misconceive you; you would not so have addressed the young, the fair, the
happy. No! you, proud beauty, with hosts, no doubt, of supplicating
wooers, would have thrust that hand into the flames before it wrote to a
young man, loved as the young are loved, what without shame it wrote to
the old man, reverenced as the old are reverenced! But my heart is not
old, and your boasted reverence was a mocking insult. Your letter, torn
to pieces, was returned to you without a word--insult for insult! You
felt no shame that I should so rudely reject your pity. Why should you?
Rejected pity is not rejected love. The man was not less old because he
was not reconciled to age."
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