What Will He Do with It? — Volume 12Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
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What Will He Do with It? — Volume 12
Lytton, Edward Bulwer Lytton, Baron
English fiction -- 19th century
"Tut, foolish old friend!" said Darrell, leaning his aria tenderly on
Fairthorn's shoulder, and walking on slowly towards the house. "How
often must I tell you that no Marriage-bells can ring for me!"
"But you have told me, too, that you went to Twickenham to steal a sight
of her again; and that it was the sight of her that made you resolve to
wed no one else. And when I have railed against her for fickleness, have
you not nearly frightened me out of my wits, as if no one might rail
against her but yourself? And now she is free--and did you not grant
that she would not refuse your hand, and would be true and faithful
henceforth? And yet you insist on being--granite."
"No, Dick, not granite; I wish I were."
"Granite and pride," persisted Dick, courageously. "If one chips a bit
off the granite, one only breaks one's spade against the pride."
"Pride--you too!" muttered Darrell, mournfully; then aloud: "No, it is
not pride now, whatever it might have been even yesterday. But I would
rather be racked by all the tortures that pious inquisitors ever invented
out of compassion for obstinate heretics, than condemn the woman I have
so fatally loved to a penance the misery of which she cannot foresee.
She would accept me?--certainly! Why! Because she thinks she owes me
reparation--because she pities me. And my heart tells me that I might
become cruel, and mean, and vindictive, if I were to live day by day with
one who created in me, while my life was at noon, a love never known in
its morn, and to feel that that love's sole return was the pity
vouchsafed to the nightfall of my age. No; if she pitied, but did not
love me, when, eighteen years ago, we parted under yonder beech-tree, I
should be a dotard to dream that woman's pity mellows into love as our
locks become grey, and Youth turns our vows into ridicule. It is not
pride that speaks here; it is rather humility, Dick. But we must not now
talk of old age and bygones. Youth and marriage-bells, Dick! Know that,
I have been for hours pondering how to reconcile with my old-fashioned
notions dear Lionel's happiness. We must think of the living as well as
the dead, Dick. I have solved the problem. I am happy, and so shall the
young folks be."
"You don't mean to say that you will consent to--"
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