“I've watched you ever since I came. You have not won. You have surrendered. You have made terms with the enemy. You have made confession that you are tired. You have flown the white flag of fatigue. You have nailed up a notice to the effect that life is ebbing down in you. You have run away from life. You have played a trick, shabby trick. You have balked at the game. You refuse to play. You have thrown your cards under the table and run away to hide, here amongst your hills.” He tossed his straight hair back from his flashing eyes, and scarcely interrupted to roll a long, brown, Mexican cigarette. “But the gods know. It is an old trick. All the generations of man have tried it... and lost. The gods know how to deal with such as you. To pursue is to possess, and to possess is to be sated. And so you, in your wisdom, have refused any longer to pursue. You have elected surcease. Very well. You will become sated with surcease. You say you have escaped satiety! You have merely bartered it for senility. And senility is another name for satiety. It is satiety's masquerade. Bah!” “But look at me!” I cried. Carquinez was ever a demon for haling ones soul out and making rags and tatters of it. He looked me witheringly up and down. “You see no signs,” I challenged. “Decay is insidious,” he retorted. “You are rotten ripe.” I laughed and forgave him for his very deviltry. But he refused to be forgiven. “Do I not know?” he asked. “The gods always win. I have watched men play for years what seemed a winning game. In the end they lost.” “Don't you ever make mistakes?” I asked. He blew many meditative rings of smoke before replying. “Yes, I was nearly fooled, once. Let me tell you. There was Marvin Fiske. You remember him? And his Dantesque face and poet's soul, singing his chant of the flesh, the very priest of Love? And there was Ethel Baird, whom also you must remember.” “A warm saint,” I said. “That is she! Holy as Love, and sweeter! Just a woman, made for love; and yet--how shall I say?--drenched through with holiness as your own air here is with the perfume of flowers. Well, they married. They played a hand with the gods--” “And they won, they gloriously won!” I broke in. Carquinez looked at me pityingly, and his voice was like a funeral bell. “They lost. They supremely, colossally lost.” “But the world believes otherwise,” I ventured coldly. “The world conjectures. The world sees only the face of things. But I know. Has it ever entered your mind to wonder why she took the veil, buried herself in that dolorous convent of the living dead?” “Because she loved him so, and when he died...” Speech was frozen on my lips by Carquinez's sneer. “A pat answer,” he said, “machine-made like a piece of cotton-drill. The world's judgment! And much the world knows about it. Like you, she fled from life. She was beaten. She flung out the white flag of fatigue. And no beleaguered city ever flew that flag in such bitterness and tears.