She startled. “How did you know?” she demanded. “Have you found out who
I am?”
“Certainly. You’re Rix, model to Chang.... No, I was joking. I know
only what you told me yesterday--or, rather, what you enabled me to
guess.”
“And you approve of my marrying--that way?”
“I’d hardly be guilty of the impertinence of either approving or
disapproving.”
“Frankness wouldn’t be impertinence--between you and me. At least,
that’s the way I feel about it. Do you really approve of--of marriage
for--for other reasons than love?”
“Heartily.”
A long silence. Then she, with an effort: “When I got back home night
before last all that happened up there seemed unreal--absolutely
unreal--like a dream.”
“Even the biscuit and the chocolate?”
“Even you,” she replied.
Her tone made his wandering attention concentrate, made him glance
swiftly at her.
She smiled. “Don’t be alarmed,” said she. “There’s not the slightest
cause.”
“Sure?” inquired he jestingly. “You see, I’m not used to young
girls--American girls. You talk so freely. If I weren’t an American I’d
misunderstand.”
“What would it matter if you did?” retorted she.
“To be sure--it wouldn’t matter at all,” he admitted. “Do go on.”
“If it weren’t that my knowing you--this way--would always seem
unreal--not at all a part of life--I’d not dare come. Now, don’t
misunderstand. That doesn’t mean I’m falling in love with you--at
least, I don’t think it does.” Dreamily--“No, I don’t think so.”
“Depressing,” said he, with an awkward attempt at humor. He did not
like these frank personalities from his model--these alarming skirtings
of the subject he wished to discuss or consider with no woman. It was
interesting, refreshingly interesting, this unheard-of, direct way of
dealing with a matter invariably ignored by an unmarried, marriageable
girl--that is, so far as his experience went, it was ignored--but,
perhaps, in the America growing up during his absence--yes, this
interesting audacity was disquieting.
“No--I’ve thought it out carefully, Chang,” pursued she. “I’m not
afraid of falling in love with you. It’s simply that what you are--what
you stand for--appeals to my other self--the self I’m soon going to
wrap in a shroud and lay in a grave--forever.... Coming here is a kind
of dissipation for me. But I shan’t lose control of myself.” She nodded
positively, and there was a shrewd flash in her eyes.
“I’ll back you up,” said he. “So you needn’t worry. Falling in love is
entirely out of my line.”
He saw that she had no more belief in this than the next woman would
have had. For, little though he knew about women--the realities as to
women, the intricacies of women--he had not failed to learn that every
young or youngish woman regards herself as an expert at compelling men
to love, as a certain victor whenever she cares to exert herself to
win. “You have your career, I mine,” he went on. “They have nothing in
common. So we needn’t waste time worrying about impossibilities.”
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