England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
"He shall not sit beside you at dinner; so much I can guarantee," said
Eric. And though Winifred thanked him laughingly, as if all that had
been said was a joke, she did not entirely disagree with Celia's first
observation when they found themselves alone in their own room.
"Winifred," said Celia, "I think Mr Eric Balderson was _really_ rather
angry at your tone about Lennox. I heard it in his voice, though he has
that dry way of speaking that makes it difficult to know whether he is
in fun or earnest."
She was standing in front of the fire--a brightly glowing one--in the
large room, which, with a dressing-room out of it, the two girls shared
together. And as she spoke she turned round slowly, and looked at her
sister half timidly.
"Well, and what if he were?" said Winifred. "After all, Lennox is our
cousin, not his. He does not need to take up the cudgels in the poor
dear's defence. It would be very impertinent."
"He would not mean it that way," said Celia, "and though you are so much
cleverer and wiser than I, you know, Winifred, onlookers sometimes see
the most. Don't you think, considering how things are with Lennox, it
would be better always to speak very nicely of him? After all, his
caring for you is no crime--you need not _despise_ him for it."
"Oh, bother!" said Winifred, throwing herself back into a comfortable
chintz-covered arm-chair, "perhaps it would be better. But I hate
beating about the bush and always thinking such a lot about what to say
and not to say. I do like to be natural. However, I'll be more
careful. But I am so tired of Lennox and all that dull, humdrum country
life that Mrs Balderson calls restful and delightful. And so are you,
Celia; we are at one on these subjects."
"Of course we are," said the younger girl, "though my feeling is not
that I want to leave home, but simply to have--you know what--my chance,
my test, which I _cannot_ have at home. But you are very good, dear
Winifred, not to think _me_ impertinent for warning you."
For a moment or two there was silence.
Then said Winifred, raising herself, "I must write to mamma."
A shadow of disappointment flitted across Celia's face, but there was no
trace of it in her voice.
"To mamma?" she said. "Oh, then, I will write to Louise."
"Of course," said Winifred, majestically. "It would never do for _me_
not to write first to mamma. Indeed, I don't see that there is any
hurry for your writing at all."
She got out her paper and pens as she spoke. Then with the queer
mixture of candid self-deprecation which existed in her, side by side
with unusual self-assertion, she startled Celia by an unexpected speech.
"About what you were saying of Lennox just now, Celia," she began, her
fingers toying idly with the pen she had already dipped into the ink,
"do you know, at the bottom of my heart, I don't think I believe that he
_does_ care for me?"
Celia gasped.
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