Who Was Lost and Is Found: A NovelOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Who Was Lost and Is Found: A Novel
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Criminals -- Fiction; Mothers and sons -- Fiction; Scotland -- Fiction
philosophy that had grown out of her much thinking. Robert was not a
bairn, nor was God a mere benevolent patron, to seize the lad without
rhyme or reason, and set him back there, because she wearied Him with
crying. She had wanted God to be that, many times in her long period of
trouble; but by dint of time and thought a different sense of things had
come to her. God was not a good fairy: He was the great God of heaven
and earth. He had Robert to think of as well as his mother, and
thousands and millions of other things. Often in the weariness of her
heart she asked nothing for Robert, said nothing, but sat there before
the Lord with the boy’s name on her heart put before Him. And that was
all she was doing now.
Of all that landscape there was one point to which her eyes turned the
oftenest, and, which drew her away out of herself, as if by some charm
of movement and going. And that was the piece of road which lay at the
foot of the brae, with her own garden-gate opening into it, and the two
lines of the holly-hedges on either side. Often she would be drawn back
from her thinking by the sight of a figure on the road, which turned out
to be a very common figure,--sometimes a beggar, or a man with a pack, a
travelling merchant, or, more familiar still than that, a postman on his
way home, or a lad that had been working later than usual. But whatever
the man was, the sight of him always gave Mrs Ogilvy a sharp sensation.
“At any moment!” she had said to herself so long that it had entered
into her very soul. “At any moment!”--she was conscious of this night
and day. Through all that she was doing she had always one ear listening
for any new step or sound. And you may think how much more strong that
habitual watchfulness was when she looked out in the evening, the time
when everybody comes home, upon the road by which he must come, if he
ever came. A hundred times and a hundred more she had watched that road,
with her eyes
“Busy in the distance shaping things
That made her heart beat thick.”
Often and often she had seen a man detach himself from the white strip
of the road, and heard her own gate click and swing, and watched a head
moving upward over the line of the hedge. But it never was any one
except the most simple, the most naturally to be expected
visitor--perhaps the minister, perhaps Mr Miller from the paper-mill,
perhaps some friend of Andrew’s and Janet’s. Her heart beat in her ears,
in her throat, for a dreadful moment, and then stood still. It was not
he: how should it? She rose up with no heart at all, everything stopped
and hushed, and said, “How are you to-night, Mr Logan? What a bonnie
evening for a walk,” or “How are you, Mr Miller; sit down and take a
rest after your climb.” She said nothing about her disappointment; and,
indeed, who could say she was disappointed? It just was not Robbie: and
she had no more reason to think that it would be him than that the night
would suddenly turn into day.
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