Who Was Lost and Is Found: A NovelOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Who Was Lost and Is Found: A Novel
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
Criminals -- Fiction; Mothers and sons -- Fiction; Scotland -- Fiction
little about it to-day, for it would bring a crowd of visitors, and
perhaps some even on the Sabbath: and Mr Robert is tired, and not caring
to see visitors. He must just have a day or two to rest before everybody
knows.”
“I’m no a man,” said Andrew, a little sullen, “for clashes and clavers:
you had better, mem, say a word to the wife.” Andrew was conscious that
in his prowl for victuals the night before he had spread the news of
Ogilvy’s return,--“and nae mair comfort to his mother nor ever, or I am
sair mistaen”--far and wide.
“Whatever you do,” Mrs Ogilvy said, a little subdued by Andrew’s looks,
“do not say anything to the minister’s man.”
She went back, and sat down in her usual place between the window and
the fireplace. The room was full of flowers, gathered fresh for Sunday;
and the Bible lay on the little table, the knitting and the newspapers
being carefully cleared away. She took the book and opened it, or rather
it opened of itself, at those chapters in St John’s Gospel which are the
dearest to the sorrowful. She opened it, but she did not read it. She
had no need. She knew every word by heart, as no one could do by any
mere effort of memory: but only by many, many readings, long penetration
of the soul by that stream of consolation. It did her a little good to
have the book open by her side: but she did not need it--and, indeed,
the sacred words were mingled unconsciously by many a broken prayer and
musing of her own. She had gone to her son’s room, to the door, many
times since she parted with him the night before; but had heard no
sound, and, hovering there on the threshold, had been afraid to go in,
as she so longed to do. What mother would not, after so long an absence,
steal in to say again good-night--to see that all was comfortable,
plenty of covering on the bed, not too much, just what he wanted; or
again, in the morning, to see how he had slept, to recognise his dear
face by the morning light, to say God bless him, and God bless him the
first morning as the first night of his return? But Mrs Ogilvy was
afraid. She went and stood outside the door, trembling, but she had not
the courage to go in. She felt that it might anger him--that it might
annoy him--that he would not like it. He had been a long time away. He
had grown a man almost middle-aged, with none of the habits or even
recollections of a boy. He would not like her to go near him--to touch
him. With a profound humility of which she was not conscious, she
explained to herself that this was after all “very natural.” A man
within sight of forty (she counted his age to a day--he was
thirty-seven) had forgotten, being long parted from them, the ways of a
mother. He had maybe, she said to herself with a shudder, known--other
kinds of women. She had no right to be pained by it--to make a grievance
of it. Oh no, no grievance: it was “very natural.” If she went into the
parlour, where she always sat in the morning, she would hear him when he
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