But Woolfolk held the ketch on her return course; his companion's
panic was growing beyond her control. They passed once more between
the broken waves and entered the still bay with its border of
flowering earth. There, when the yacht had been anchored, Millie sat
gazing silently at the open sea whose bigness had so unexpectedly
distressed her. Her face was pinched, her mouth set in a straight,
hard line. That, somehow, suggested to Woolfolk the enigmatic
governess; it was in contradiction to the rest.
"How strange," she said at last in an insuperably weary voice, "to be
forced back to this place that I loathe, by myself, by my own
cowardice. It's exactly as if my spirit were chained--then the body
could never be free. What is it," she demanded of John Woolfolk, "that
lives in our own hearts and betrays our utmost convictions and
efforts, and destroys us against all knowledge and desire?"
"It may be called heredity," he replied; "that is its simplest phase.
The others extend into the realms of the fantastic."
"It's unjust," she cried bitterly, "to be condemned to die in a pit
with all one's instinct in the sky!"
The old plea of injustice quivered for a moment over the water and
then died away. John Woolfolk had made the same passionate protest, he
had cried it with clenched hands at the withdrawn stars, and the
profound inattention of Nature had appalled his agony. A thrill of
pity moved him for the suffering woman beside him. Her mouth was still
unrelaxed. There was in her the material for a struggle against the
invidious past.
In her slender frame the rebellion took on an accent of the heroic.
Woolfolk recalled how utterly he had gone down before mischance. But
his case had been extreme, he had suffered an unendurable wrong at the
hand of Fate. Halvard diverted his thoughts by placing before them a
tray of sugared pineapple and symmetrical cakes. Millie, too, lost her
tension; she showed a feminine pleasure at the yacht's fine napkins,
approved the polish of the glass.
"It's all quite wonderful," she said.
"I have nothing else to care for," Woolfolk told her.
"No place nor people on land?"
"None."
"And you are satisfied?"
"Absolutely," he replied with an unnecessary emphasis. He was, he told
himself aggressively; he wanted nothing more from living and had
nothing to give. Yet his pity for Millie Stope mounted obscurely,
bringing with it thoughts, dim obligations and desires, to which he
had declared himself dead.
"I wonder if you are to be envied?" she queried.
A sudden astounding willingness to speak of himself, even of the past,
swept over him.
"Hardly," he replied. "All the things that men value were killed for
me in an instant, in the flutter of a white skirt."
"Can you talk about it?"
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