In his longing to talk he would have addressed himself almost to any
one; but on the whole, and in spite of an entire ignorance of his habits
and character, he was glad it was Faraday who was left behind to hear
him—a newcomer, recently transferred from another branch and, as William
realized (if only half-consciously) like himself regarded by their
fellow-clerks as a bit of an outsider. A sallow-faced young man,
dark-haired and with large hazel eyes, he was neatly garbed as became an
insurance clerk; but there was a suggestion of discomfort about his
conventional neatness, just as there was a suggestion of effort about
his personal cleanliness. He worked hard and steadily; taking no part in
the interludes of blithesome chat wherewith his companions enlivened
their hours of toil and appearing to be satisfied rather than annoyed by
the knowledge of his own isolation. He had spoken to William but two or
three times and always in the way of business—nor was his profile bent
over a ledger particularly suggestive of sympathy; William’s emotions,
however, had reached exploding-point, and the door had hardly closed
behind the last of their fellows when he blurted out, "I say," and
Faraday raised his head.
"I say," William blurted again, "did you know—my mother’s dead?"
"Ah—yes," said Faraday uncomfortably; he believed he was being appealed
to for sympathy, and fidgeted, clearing his throat; "I—I had heard it
mentioned. I needn’t say I’m very sorry—extremely.... I suppose you
were very much attached to her?"
William reflected for a moment and then answered honestly, "No."
"Indeed!" Faraday returned, surprised as well as uncomfortable. Not
knowing what further to say, his eyes went back to the ledger and the
conversation languished. It was William who resumed it—wondering at the
difficulty of expressing his bubbling emotions.
"I don’t mean to say," he explained with a twinge of remorse, "that I
had anything to complain of. My mother always did her duty by me. But
we weren’t what you might call sympathetic."
"Indeed!" Faraday repeated—still at sea as to the motive of the
conversation.
"It was unfortunate," William went on, "but it couldn’t be helped. I am
sure she was a very good woman." (He said this with the more confidence
because, from his childhood up, he had always associated goodness with
lack of amiability.) "But that wasn’t what I wanted to say. What I
wanted to say was, she has left me a good deal of money."
"Indeed?" said Faraday for the third time; adding something about
"congratulation." He hoped the episode was over—but William was only
beginning.
"I’ve been wondering," he said, "what I should do—now that I’m
independent. I don’t want to go on like this. It’s a waste—when you’ve
got money. But I don’t know how to set about things.... If some one
would put me in the way!"
Faraday, raising his eyes from the ledger, met the wistful appeal in
William’s and imagined himself enlightened.
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