Bildungsromans; Fathers and sons -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
Within the next ten days after the talk in Colonel Tom’s office Sam saw
Sue Rainey several times coming to or going from her father’s office.
Once, meeting in the little lobby by the office entrance, she stopped
and put out her hand which Sam took awkwardly. He had a feeling that she
would not have regretted an opportunity to continue the sudden little
intimacy that had sprung up between them in the few minutes’ talk of
Janet Eberly. The feeling did not come from vanity but from a belief in
Sam that she was in some way lonely and wanting companionship. Although
she had been much courted she lacked, he thought, the talent for
comradeship or quick friendliness. “Like Janet she is more than half
intellect,” he told himself, and felt a pang of regret for the slight
disloyalty of the further thought that there was in Sue a something more
substantial and solid than there had been in Janet.
Suddenly Sam began wondering whether or not he would like to marry Sue
Rainey. His mind played with the idea. He took it with him to bed, and
it went with him all day in his hurried trips through offices and shops.
The thought having come to him persisted, and he began seeing her in a
new light. The odd half awkward little movements of her hands, and their
expressiveness, the brown fine texture of her cheeks, the clearness and
honesty of her grey eyes, the quick sympathy and understanding of his
feeling for Janet, and the subtle flattery of the notion he had got that
she was interested in him--all of these things came and went in his mind
while he ran through columns of figures and laid plans for the expansion
of the business of the Arms Company. Unconsciously he began to make her
a part of his plans for the future.
Later, Sam discovered that during the days after the first talk together
the thought of a marriage between them was in Sue’s mind also. After
the talk she went home and stood for an hour before the glass studying
herself and she once told Sam that in her bed that night she shed
tears because she had never been able to arouse in a man the note of
tenderness that had been in his voice when he talked to her of Janet.
And then two months after the first talk they had another. Sam, who had
not allowed his grief over the loss of Janet or his nightly efforts
to drown the sting of it in hard drinking, to check the big forward
movement that he felt he was getting into the work of the offices and
shops, sat one afternoon deeply absorbed in a pile of factory cost
sheets. His shirt sleeves were rolled to the elbow, showing his white
muscular forearms. He was absorbed, intent upon the sheets.
“I stepped in,” said a voice above his head.
Glancing up quickly, Sam sprang to his feet. “She must have been there
some minutes looking down at me,” he thought, and had a thrill of
pleasure in the thought.
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