Withered Leaves: A Novel. Vol. 3 (of 3)Gottschall, Rudolf von
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Withered Leaves: A Novel. Vol. 3 (of 3)
Gottschall, Rudolf von
German fiction -- Translations into English
"One thing more," said Blanden, "take care of Giulia if I fall. The
world will condemn her as being the cause of my death. Perhaps her
artistic career may be endangered. She has no support, no friend!
Everything seems to be double-faced that moves around her. Be you her
friend; will you promise it me?"
"With all my heart," said Kuhl.
"I have made my will; the legacy I leave to her is considerable enough
to ensure her a life free from care, even if she retire from the stage.
Help her with good advice, but do not forget that she is almost my
widow, too sacred for frivolous games, and veiled for you by this my
last solemn word."
Kuhl thought to himself, "Jealous beyond the grave," but he did not
venture to smile, he only squeezed his friend's hand in silence.
Blanden looked at the clock--it was time. All entered the carriage
again, which rolled along upon creaking wheels through the snow-laden
forest.
On the edge of the pine wood another carriage was standing; the
opponents had just arrived.
The scene of conflict was a little snow-covered glade; distances were
measured, and the weapons examined. Blanden knew no fear, not even fear
of death, but the full consciousness of the nonentity of existence
overcame him. There was nothing appalling for him in death, but
something almost humiliating. It was miserable, full of thoughts which
grasp a world to be hurled to the ground by a piece of rattling metal,
which pierces one in rapid flight, which even an old decayed tree stem
can defy; it was too wretched to lie here bedded in the snow like any
crow shot down from the grey wintry sky by the sportsman's gun, so that
the wings of the mind hang down paralysed and dead for evermore, like
the wings of the hideous bird which just now croaked so loudly for prey
and food.
Lifeless lead--and instead of the agitated spirit's notes of
exclamation and interrogation, that one great line which ends this
chapter of life, and perhaps the whole book.
And, yet, it is easy to die on a frosty, winter's day, when all life
cowers, when the trees stretch their bare summits into the misty grey
atmosphere, and the shroud of snow lies upon all the forests and
meadows. All nature shudders, as if renouncing every happiness.
But, no! One heart there is that beats anxiously for you; two eyes
which already dedicate scalding tears to the dark possibility that
menaces you; there, indeed, is life and happiness, and from these it is
that you must part.
As is the case in all moments of most supreme tension, Blanden's mind
saw such pictures and thoughts pass before him with a certain rigidity,
and only awoke again as Kuhl pressed the pistols into his hand.
Attempts at reconciliation had not been made, the bitterness of the
opponents was too great, those polite ceremonies, which had been made
for form's sake, were dropped again immediately, as being perfectly
futile.
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