England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Stepmothers -- Fiction
The name of a Chevalier of St. Michael sounds very splendid to innocent
and uninstructed ears. It is a title which stands alone in England at
least. Poor Knights have been heard of both in flesh and blood and in
confectionery, in other places; but the title Chevalier is preserved in
St. Michael’s, and there alone. Lottie thought it very imposing, and her
heart leaped, partly with a sense of her own injustice all her life to
her father, of whose merits, in youthful irreverence, she had hitherto
thought but little. He must be, she thought involuntarily, a great deal
braver, better, and altogether of more importance than she had supposed,
when his qualities could win him such a distinction from his country;
for that it was a distinction accorded by the country Lottie had no
manner of doubt in those days. She was overawed and overjoyed: first of
all on account of the people in Fairford, where they had hitherto lived,
and who had shown but little respect for the family: but much more on
her own account. She felt reconciled to herself, to her kind, to all her
circumstances, when she reflected that she was the daughter of a
Chevalier of St. Michael, and that Betty would never leave Fairford, and
that Captain Despard had expressed himself in favour of respectability
as a thing to be cultivated. Life suddenly took a new aspect to her. She
thought they would be able to shake off every incumbrance when they went
away. Her father would henceforward live a stately and dignified life as
became his position. He would not haunt the place where billiards were
played, and wear a number of shabby coats, each worse than the other,
but every one with a flower in it. The flower, which most people would
have thought a softening clause, was intolerable to Lottie; it looked
like a piece of braggadocio, a wilful defiance of public opinion or
declaration of independence. But henceforward if he must wear a flower
it must be at least in a tolerable coat; henceforward he would be trim
and smooth, and come in at a respectable hour; henceforward there should
be no bills except weekly ones, and Law should go to school--nay, Law
was too old for school now--but at least he would read with a tutor, and
grow into a creature of whom his sister might be proud. Perhaps this was
but another way of expressing the domestic tyranny of which Lottie’s
will was full. She was so anxious to be able to be proud of her father
and brother; was not that another way of saying that she wanted to get
them up, or down, to her feminine standard, and control and bind and
keep them at her apron-string? So, perhaps, a cynic might have said.
But Lottie was unconscious of any such intention. She was eager to have
something which she had not, the opposite of what she had--and thus,
too, it may be said, she fell into a commonplace.
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