England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Stepmothers -- Fiction
But when the family got to St. Michael’s, Lottie’s hopes came to a
melancholy conclusion. Not only did Captain Despard remain very much the
same, which was a thing that most people anticipated--and Law decline
the tutor, upon whom Lottie had set her heart, but St. Michael’s itself
and the Chevaliership turned out something very different from the
girl’s exalted expectations. She found that this office was not looked
upon on the spot as a reward of distinguished merit bestowed by the
country, but only as a sort of retiring pension for a number of old
soldiers whose friends had interest enough to have them thus provided
for. She found a hierarchy of a totally different kind constituted and
reigning, in which the Chevaliers had no place. And she found
herself--she whose chief inspiration was this proud and eager desire to
be somebody--in a place where she could never be other than nobody, and
where no nobler self-denial on the part of her father, no virtue in Law,
could call forth the acclamation of the world. In Fairford there were
people as poor as themselves whom all the world thought well of, and of
whom Lottie was envious; but here she was one of a class who were poor
among the rich, and did not get the social honours which many of them
deserved; while at the same time, close before her eyes, daily visible,
appeared another class which seemed to fulfil all Lottie’s requirements:
refined people with beautiful houses, living serene in an atmosphere of
universal respect. But alas, these were ecclesiastical people, not the
Chevaliers: and showed little disposition to notice Lottie. Lottie did
not like this. She had expected something so different. Society, she
thought, and a brighter world were going to open upon her; and lo!
nothing at all opened upon her that was new. It is very hard, especially
when you feel yourself to be, as the proverb says, as good a gentleman
as the king, to find yourself in contact with a higher class which
ignores you. Most of us have to bear something of the kind, and learn to
take it with philosophy. But Lottie was very young and sadly
disappointed. Nobody took any notice of her save the other Chevaliers,
their wives and daughters, and these were not very much more splendid
people than the society she had been used to. Lottie was sore, and
disappointed, and humbled in her own conceit.
And there was another way in which the word of promise was kept to her
ear, with far other meaning than she had hoped. Captain Despard had a
very serious interview with his daughter when they arrived in their
little house. He called her out of the little box which was her
drawing-room to the other little box where he had established himself,
and deigned to enter upon the question of income.
“Now, Lottie,” he said, “you have chosen to bother me lately about
money, and expressed views which I could not sanction about weekly
bills.”
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