England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Stepmothers -- Fiction
boy who was too much at home, who was scarcely ever at school, and who
often had no clothes to go out in--even Law saw how wretched it was at
home, though he was hopeless as well as careless, and asked his sister
what was the good of minding, what could they do? But Lottie was not of
the kind which can let ill alone, or well either, for that matter. She
did mind; and as she grew older, every week, every day, added to the
flame of impatience in her. Just, however, when ruin seemed coming
beyond the possibility of further staving-off, Mrs. Despard fell ill and
died; and Lottie at sixteen was left alone, miserable, with remorseful
thoughts of having secretly blamed the mother who was now out of reach,
and to whom she could never make amends for those injurious secret
fault-findings; and full of anxieties unspeakable--forlorn wonderings
what she was to do, and eagerness to do something. Her grief, however,
was lightened by the feeling that now she had everything in her hands
and could “make a change,”--even when it was made more heavy by the
thought that she had found fault in her heart with the mother who was
dead. It seemed to the girl that she must be able, by dint of devoting
herself to it, to change everything--to keep the house in order if she
did it with her own hands, to pay the bills, wherever the money came
from. She was overflowing with life and energy and activity, and
disapproved of all the ways of the past. She was like a new king coming
to the throne, a new ministry of idealists bent upon undoing all their
predecessors had done, and doing everything as it ought to be done.
Alas, poor Lottie! the young king with all the stiff precedents of a
hundred years against him, the young ministry confronted by a thousand
problems, and finding their ideal pronounced impracticable on every
side, were nothing to the heaven-born reformer of the household with a
pleasure loving impecunious father to whom debt was second nature, and
who had always preferred fun to respectability. And she dashed at her
reforms too boldly, as was natural to her age, insisting upon brushings
and sweepings till Betty threw up her situation, and asking for money
till her father swore at her. “It is to pay the bills, papa! I want to
pay the bills!” she had said, reduced to plead for that which she
thought she had a right to demand. “D---- the bills!” was all Captain
Despard replied.
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