English fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, English
He went on board his schooner. She lay white, and as if suspended, in
the crepuscular atmosphere of sunset mingling with the ashy gleam of the
vast anchorage. He tried to keep his thoughts as sober, as reasonable,
as measured as his words had been, lest they should get away from him and
cause some sort of moral disaster. What he was afraid of in the coming
night was sleeplessness and the endless strain of that wearisome task.
It had to be faced however. He lay on his back, sighing profoundly in
the dark, and suddenly beheld his very own self, carrying a small bizarre
lamp, reflected in a long mirror inside a room in an empty and
unfurnished palace. In this startling image of himself he recognised
somebody he had to follow—the frightened guide of his dream. He
traversed endless galleries, no end of lofty halls, innumerable doors.
He lost himself utterly—he found his way again. Room succeeded room. At
last the lamp went out, and he stumbled against some object which, when
he stooped for it, he found to be very cold and heavy to lift. The
sickly white light of dawn showed him the head of a statue. Its marble
hair was done in the bold lines of a helmet, on its lips the chisel had
left a faint smile, and it resembled Miss Moorsom. While he was staring
at it fixedly, the head began to grow light in his fingers, to diminish
and crumble to pieces, and at last turned into a handful of dust, which
was blown away by a puff of wind so chilly that he woke up with a
desperate shiver and leaped headlong out of his bed-place. The day had
really come. He sat down by the cabin table, and taking his head between
his hands, did not stir for a very long time.
Very quiet, he set himself to review this dream. The lamp, of course, he
connected with the search for a man. But on closer examination he
perceived that the reflection of himself in the mirror was not really the
true Renouard, but somebody else whose face he could not remember. In
the deserted palace he recognised a sinister adaptation by his brain of
the long corridors with many doors, in the great building in which his
friend’s newspaper was lodged on the first floor. The marble head with
Miss Moorsom’s face! Well! What other face could he have dreamed of?
And her complexion was fairer than Parian marble, than the heads of
angels. The wind at the end was the morning breeze entering through the
open porthole and touching his face before the schooner could swing to
the chilly gust.
Yes! And all this rational explanation of the fantastic made it only
more mysterious and weird. There was something daemonic in that dream.
It was one of those experiences which throw a man out of conformity with
the established order of his kind and make him a creature of obscure
suggestions.
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