English fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, English
“Oh! I don’t mean that you are like the men and women of the time of
armours, castles, and great deeds. Oh, no! They stood on the naked
soil, had traditions to be faithful to, had their feet on this earth of
passions and death which is not a hothouse. They would have been too
plebeian for you since they had to lead, to suffer with, to understand
the commonest humanity. No, you are merely of the topmost layer,
disdainful and superior, the mere pure froth and bubble on the
inscrutable depths which some day will toss you out of existence. But
you are you! You are you! You are the eternal love itself—only, O
Divinity, it isn’t your body, it is your soul that is made of foam.”
She listened as if in a dream. He had succeeded so well in his effort to
drive back the flood of his passion that his life itself seemed to run
with it out of his body. At that moment he felt as one dead speaking.
But the headlong wave returning with tenfold force flung him on her
suddenly, with open arms and blazing eyes. She found herself like a
feather in his grasp, helpless, unable to struggle, with her feet off the
ground. But this contact with her, maddening like too much felicity,
destroyed its own end. Fire ran through his veins, turned his passion to
ashes, burnt him out and left him empty, without force—almost without
desire. He let her go before she could cry out. And she was so used to
the forms of repression enveloping, softening the crude impulses of old
humanity that she no longer believed in their existence as if it were an
exploded legend. She did not recognise what had happened to her. She
came safe out of his arms, without a struggle, not even having felt
afraid.
“What’s the meaning of this?” she said, outraged but calm in a scornful
way.
He got down on his knees in silence, bent low to her very feet, while she
looked down at him, a little surprised, without animosity, as if merely
curious to see what he would do. Then, while he remained bowed to the
ground pressing the hem of her skirt to his lips, she made a slight
movement. He got up.
“No,” he said. “Were you ever so much mine what could I do with you
without your consent? No. You don’t conquer a wraith, cold mist, stuff
of dreams, illusion. It must come to you and cling to your breast. And
then! Oh! And then!”
All ecstasy, all expression went out of his face.
“Mr. Renouard,” she said, “though you can have no claim on my
consideration after having decoyed me here for the vile purpose,
apparently, of gloating over me as your possible prey, I will tell you
that I am not perhaps the extraordinary being you think I am. You may
believe me. Here I stand for truth itself.”
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