Families -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- History -- 19th century -- Fiction
She could laugh with him now, and when she laughed he found a new
excuse for a new adoration. He was not gifted in frivolity, and the
old house seemed to store up her mirth for dark days when remembered
laughter would make a more heartbreaking echo than the remembered drip
of tears.
Breakfast left his soul famished for her love, but she would not be
serious. She flitted and chirped like a bird that lures a hunter away
from her nest.
She seemed to evade him, “to lock herself from his resort,” to be
preparing retreats and defences. He was humiliated and shamefully
ashamed to find that she was not yet his wife save by ceremony and
appearance. He had sharply rebuked the old farmer for a crassly
familiar joke or two upon a consummation devotedly to be wished, but he
would have hung his head if the truth were known.
Then finally, suddenly, strangely, she was his, and in a manner of no
sanctity at all, in a mood of eddying passion, like an evil intrigue.
Many of the bachelors, and many of the married men, kept mistresses,
but Patty was his wife. And yet he felt a bewildering sense of
infidelity to somebody, something. Was it because she seemed afterwards
to wear a look of guilt? Was she thinking that she was disloyal to
that man Chalender, whose ghost perhaps by now had left his body and
followed her up into this citadel?
If she seemed to feel guilty, she betrayed also an exhilaration in the
crime, a bravado he had never imagined her capable of.
He was the one that suffered remorse, and he came to wonder if it were
not after all man and not woman who had invented modesty and chastity,
and who upheld them as ideals which women accepted rather in obedience
than in conviction.
Evidently woman must be controlled and coerced for her own salvation.
There had been recently a flurry of a few insane zealots who had coined
a new phrase, “Women’s Rights,” and had invented an obscene garment
named after a shameless Mrs. Bloomer. In Boston a few benighted wearers
of this atrocity had been properly mobbed off the streets. They were
even less popular and less likely to succeed than the anti-slavery
fanatics.
RoBards was glad that Patty was at the other extreme from such bigots.
He would rather have her a butterfly than a beetle. He loved her for
saying once:
“I want to be ruled, Mist’ RoBards, if you please!”
And by God he would rule her—and for God he would rule her, and save
her, soul and body. If either failed it would be his fault.
Pride in her meekness, fear for her frailty, pity for her lack of
intellect, and wonder at her graces, were intertwisted with moods of a
groveling unworthiness of her, of upstaring rapture before her mystic
wisdoms.
Her purity seemed to be replenished after the storms of love, as the
blue sky came back innocent and untarnished after a black cloud and
lightning. Quick tempests rose and passed, and a fleet angelic quality
brought her down to earth on and in a rainbow from heaven.
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