Bohemianism -- Fiction; London (England) -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Married people -- England -- Fiction
"I must apologise again to you for my husband, General," she said; "I
have just had a wire from him saying he missed the nine o'clock train in
Paris, but that he had left at noon and would be here at eight. I am
very alarmed. It is ten o'clock. I fear there must have been an
accident, for I can explain his absence in no other way. It is really
most unfortunate, and I don't know how to apologise enough. I feel
quite confused."
The smile which crossed Sabaroff's face at these words was particularly
offensive to Dora.
The General was not long coming to the point. When he had entered the
drawing-room and found Dora alone, he had instantly taken his
resolution. Here was his opportunity.
"As far as I am concerned," he said, "there is nothing unfortunate in
the situation--I should rather call it fortunate for me. So, please, do
not apologise. I can never get enough of your society. Every day on
which I do not see you is dull, weary, wasted. To be allowed to see you
is my sweetest privilege, to see you alone my dearest joy."
"Really, General, spare me, please," said Dora, striving to smile
naturally.
"Ah, do not stop me, do not turn away your face. Remember the time when
I first met you in the lovely South, and you gave me the happiness of
feeling that my society was not displeasing to you. These were golden
days! Your fresh young beauty, your clear young eyes and voice made the
world new again for me, a travel-worn soldier, already beginning to find
the world a tinsel-trimmed hearth with little warmth, and a great deal
of ashes. Weary of the nomadic life of a Russian soldier, I fell to
dreaming of another kind of existence, a sweet, peaceful life at your
side. I would have consecrated the rest of my days to the dear task of
making you happy. Ambition and glory, I would have said good-bye to all
that, for my noblest ambition would have been to reign supreme in your
heart. You judged me unworthy, and I have never ceased to mourn the
fading of my beloved dream--nay, I mourn it to-day more than ever. If
only I had found you happy," he added insinuatingly.
"You are unwise, General, to talk to me of that winter," rejoined Dora.
"Can I ever forget that, thanks to you, one single day, one single hour
of it turned me from a light-hearted, innocent, ignorant girl into a
woman?--innocent still, but no longer ignorant of the sad and degrading
side of existence. Ah, in those few moments, I had passed out for ever
from the sweet calm garden of girlhood into the dusty crowded highway of
the world, and there I saw one of the saddest sides of life--the
humiliation and despair of a woman dismissed, cast off by the man who
should have passed the rest of his days in shielding her."
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