Young Earnest: The Romance of a Bad Start in LifeCannan, Gilbert
General
Young Earnest: The Romance of a Bad Start in Life
Cannan, Gilbert
English fiction -- 20th century
"No. Damn you! You never do think. By God, I'd rather be the sort of
fool to whom a woman is only a meal or a dinner. There's less mischief
in that. What's the good of your emotions if you can't control them?
You'd much better give it up like the rest of the world, shut yourself
up in marriage to keep yourself out of harm's way. Who the devil are
you, that you should claim in life the freedom an artist hopes to get
in his art?"
There was enough truth in Kilner's denunciation to enrage René. He had
felt so clear and confident, so sure of mastering the event of his
evil, and all this bitterness had him once more throbbing and
confused.
"What," he cried, "what does a work of art more or less matter? You
can't expect the rest of us to live in filthiness so that you may
paint pictures of a beauty that is never seen."
To have stung René into a hot fury seemed to appease the artist
somewhat. He grunted and said:
"In a way you're right, and honestly I don't care a hang about the
picture. I can paint it again and better. But I thought I was going to
make some money with it, enough to get out of this forever, and it is
almost more than I can bear to know that the harm has come through
you. It doesn't matter. I'll paint it again. I'll get the fierce
little spark of intelligence burning in Eve. I'd left that out. I'll
paint her feeling half confident of her superiority to both God and
Adam, and ashamed of having to submit to their fatuous pretense of
creation, their old theatrical trick. Art and religion! They stink of
the harem and aphrodisiacs, the abominable East, the gods of lust and
self-mortification. What has your trumpery idealism to say to that?"
He flung the tattered remains of the picture on the fire and held it
down. The flames consumed the paint greedily and roared in the
chimney.
"So much for that," said Kilner. "Finished! I'll start again
to-morrow. Let's go and see your little vixen and annoy her by showing
that she hasn't hurt us in the least."
"That's vindictive."
"Ho! Have you turned Christian?"
"I'm not going to have Ann moithered."
"And why not? She must learn her lesson."
"Let me find out why she did it first."
"I know why she did it. Because she thought I had taken you away from
her."
"She can't have been jealous of you."
"Women are always jealous of a man's men friends. They know his
feeling can be just as strong for them without being weakened by sex.
And they hate that-- Now, a feeling fortified by sex--ah! but that
doesn't happen."
"That," said René, "is exactly what has happened."
"Eh? To you?"
René nodded, and he told Kilner something of the walk in the west
wind, the meeting with Cathleen, the deliverance it had brought to
both of them.
"Does she know? Ann, I mean."
"No. I haven't seen her."
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account