was very proud of Egidio, or Giles, who died in the fifteenth century;
and it did not occur to him that there was any incongruity between this
devotion to his ancestors and the fact that he persisted in ignoring the
little boy upstairs.
And yet day by day it grew more hard to ignore him. Mr. Musgrave in his
study, after the enthusiasm of his monograph was over, could not help
hearing voices which it was difficult to take no notice of. The
enthusiasm of composition did a great deal for him: it carried him out
of the present; it filled him with a delightful fervour and thrill of
intellectual excitement. People who are always writing get used to it,
and lose this sense of something fine and great which is the inheritance
of the amateur. Even after the shock of renewed intercourse with the
son, who had brought shame upon his name, and whom he had cast off, Mr.
Musgrave, so long as his work lasted, found himself able to forget
everything in the happiness it gave. When he woke in the morning his
first thought was of this important occupation which awaited him, and he
went to bed with the fumes of his own paragraphs in his head; he was
carried away by it. But when all this intellectual commotion was over,
and when the ennui of having nothing further to do had swallowed up the
satisfaction of having finished a great piece of work, as it so soon
does, then there came a very difficult interval for the Squire. He had
no longer anything to absorb him and keep him comfortably above the
circumstances of ordinary life; and as he sat in his library, only
reading, only writing a letter, no longer absorbed by any special study,
or by the pride and delight of recording in fine language the results of
that study, ordinary life stole back, as it has a way of doing. He began
to hear the knocks at the door, the ringing of bells, and to wonder what
they meant; to hear steps going up and down the stairs, to be aware of
Eastwood in the dining-room, and the rustle of Mary’s dress as she went
about the house in the morning, and in the afternoon passed with a soft
boom of the swinging door into her favourite hall. The routine of the
house came back to the old man. He heard the servants in the kitchen,
the ticking of that measured, leisurely old clock in the hall which took
about five minutes to spell out the hour. He was not consciously paying
any attention to these things. On the contrary, he was secluded from
them, rapt in his books, knowing nothing of what was going on; yet he
heard them all; and as he sat there through the long winter days and the
still longer winter evenings, when there was rain or storm out of doors,
and nothing to break the long, still blank of hours within, a sound
would come to him now and then, even before the care of the household
relaxed--the cry of a little voice, a running and pattering of small
feet, sometimes an outburst of laughter, a small voice of weeping, which
stirred strangely in the air about him and vaguely called forth old
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