Vignettes: A Miniature Journal of Whim and Sentiment — Kant — John Shaqi
Vignettes: A Miniature Journal of Whim and Sentiment
Kant · en
All day an intense impression of lusty sunlight, of quivering
golden-green ... a long, white road that dazzles, between its rustling
dark-green walls; blue brawling rivers; swelling upland meadows,
flower-thronged, luscious with tall, cool grass; the shepherd’s
thin-toned pipe; the ragged flocks, blocking the road, cropping at the
hedge-rows as they hurry on towards the mountains; the slow, straining
teams of jangling mules—wine-carriers coming from Spain; through dank,
cobbled village streets, where the pigs pant their bellies in the
roadway, and the sandal-makers flatten the hemp before their doors; and
then, out again into the lusty sunlight, along the straight, powdery
road that dazzles ahead interminably towards a mysterious, hazy horizon,
where the land melts into the sky....
And, at last, the cool evening scents; soft shadows stealing beneath the
still, silent oaks; and, all at once, a sight of the great
snow-mountains, vague, phantasmagoric, like a mirage in the sky; and of
the hills, all indigo, rippling towards a pale sunset of liquid gold.
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[Sidenote: IN THE LANDES
May 27]
Since sunrise I had been travelling—along the straight-stretching roads,
white with summer sand, interminably striped by the shadows of the
poplars; across the great, parched plain, where, all the day’s length,
the heat dances over the waste land, and the cattle bells float their
far-away tinkling; through the desolate villages, empty but for the
beldames, hunched in the doorways, pulling the flax with horny,
tremulous fingers; and on towards the desolate silence of the flowerless
pine-forests....
And there the night fell. The sun went down unseen; a dim flickering
ruddled the host of tree trunks; and the darkness started to drift
through the forest. The road grew narrow as a footpath, and the mare
slackening her pace, uneasily strained her white neck ahead.
Out of the darkness a figure sprang beside me. A shout rang out—words of
an uncouth _patois_ that I did not understand. And the mare, terrified,
galloped forward, snorting, and swerving from side to side....
And a strange, superstitious fear crept over me—a dreamy dread of the
future; a helpless presentiment of evil days to come; a sense, too, of
the ruthless nullity of life, of the futile deception of effort, of
bitter revolt against the extinction of death, a yearning after faith in
a vague survival beyond....
And the words of the old proverb returned to me mockingly:—
“The eye is not satisfied with seeing,
nor the ear with hearing.”
[Sidenote: CETTE
June 5, Midday]