A Virginia Girl in the Civil War, 1861-1865: being a record of the actual experiences of the wife of a Confederate officer — John Locke — John Shaqi
A Virginia Girl in the Civil War, 1861-1865: being a record of the actual experiences of the wife of a Confederate officer
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We caught up with another ambulance. In it were an army friend of
Dan’s with his wife, and she proved the straw that broke the back of
my endurance. She played the martyr. She had rugs, and shawls, and
blankets. I cross-examined her and made her show that she hadn’t been
left on a car by herself without a ticket or a cent of money, and with
no knowledge of where she was going, that the driver of her ambulance
hadn’t been kicked in the stomach and tumbled himself backward into
her lap and nearly broken her bones, and that my case was far worse
than hers. But in spite of it, she complained of everything, and had
Dan and her husband sympathizing so with her that they had no time to
sympathize with me. I sat, almost frozen, huddled up in the one shawl
that answered for shawl, blanket, and rug, and tried to keep my teeth
from chattering and myself from hating that whining Mrs. Gummidge of a
woman.
At last our ambulance drew up in front of the Rev. Mr. McGuire’s,
where we were to stop. There was a hot supper ready, in parlor and
dining-room cheerful flames leaped up from hickory logs on bright
brass fire-dogs, and our welcome was as cheery as the glow of the fire.
As our ambulance had driven into the gate a few minutes in advance
of the other, and as Dan had also engaged board for me several days
before, I had a right to the first choice of rooms. One of these was
large with a bright fire burning in the fireplace, and a great downy
feather-bed on the four-poster; the other was small, and had neither
fireplace nor feather-bed. Of course “Mrs. Gummidge” got the best room.
Dan had to go back to camp. I slept on my hard bed in my cold room and
cried for Milicent and mother; and the next morning I broke the ice in
my bowl when I went to take my bath. I was very, very miserable that
morning. I was not out of my twenties, I had been a spoiled child, I
had not seen Milicent or mother since my marriage, I had nearly lost
my husband, and I had been ill unto death. Following my husband around
as I did, I yet saw very little of him, and I endured hardships of
every sort. I was in the land of war, and in spite of all his efforts
to protect me life was full of fears and horrors. I do not mean that
it was all woe. There were smiles, and music, and laughter, too; my
hosts were kind, Dan came over from camp whenever he could, and life
was too full of excitement ever to be dull. During the day I managed
fairly well--it was at night that the horrors overwhelmed me. My
room was cheerless, my bed was hard and cold--I wanted Milicent, I
wanted mother. I felt that the time had come when I _must_ see them
and I couldn’t: there was no way! The longing grew upon me the more
I struggled against it, until there was no risk I would not have run
to see them. I was sitting in the parlor one night thinking with
indescribable longing of the happy, care-free days in Norfolk, and
seeing dissolving pictures of home in the hickory fire. Tears were