A Virginia Girl in the Civil War, 1861-1865: being a record of the actual experiences of the wife of a Confederate officer — John Locke — John Shaqi
A Virginia Girl in the Civil War, 1861-1865: being a record of the actual experiences of the wife of a Confederate officer
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The old German had directed our friends as best he could, and
started them on their way. They were to keep to the woods and walk
to Frederick, from where, he thought, they might reach Baltimore.
He told us that they had not gone away immediately after leaving us,
although he had urged them to do so. They had said they wouldn’t go
away until they saw how we took being left alone. They had gone around
to the window of the room in which we were sitting, and had spied upon
us. When they saw us gossiping with the old woman, they had gone off
satisfied that we would not break down after their departure.
“Tey vas not so vraid vor her,” he said, indicating Milicent. “It vas
you, te leetle matam, as he call you, dat he vas vraid vor. He vraid
you vould cry pecause you vas so leetle, unt pecause you vas so ver’
younk. I ask him vat he do if you cry, unt I dry to make him come avay,
unt he say: ‘If she cry I von’t go. I vill go in tat room unt I vill
dake her up in mine arms unt I vill not stop until I put her safe in
Captain Grey’s arms! Dot is vot I vill do.’ He titn’t leaf you off,” to
Milicent, “put he dort you pe mo’ prave.”
If he had been at the window then he would have seen tears in our eyes.
But I bore a grudge.
“Milicent,” I said, as soon as we were alone, “I don’t see why people
should make of me just the exception that they always do. I may be a
little younger, but I am married, and I have got just as much sense
about some things and I’m just as brave as you are. I’m a soldier’s
wife, the wife of a Confederate officer. I wonder how I have behaved
that everybody expects _me_ to be a coward.”
And Milicent comforted me.
The next morning an orderly rapped at the door of the German’s house
and asked for us.
The German answered.
“Tell the _ladies_,” with an emphasis on the word, “the provost says
they can go on. The train leaves in fifteen minutes. They will find
their baggage at the station. Here are their keys.”
“You see it is vell tat te shentlemen tit not vait vor bermission,”
said the German as we hurried into our wraps.
We heard afterward that following our departure a sergeant-at-arms
called for the “shentlemen.” Our train was late coming in. As we stood
on the platform waiting we saw that wretched little Jew boy fooling
around and watching us. We pretended not to see him. Suddenly I felt a
tremor in Milicent’s arm which was linked in mine.
“Do you see who is on the platform talking with the little Jew boy? No,
don’t turn your head--don’t look suddenly--don’t look at all. It is the
provost’s deputy who didn’t believe in us yesterday.”
Oh, if the train would only come, and we were on it and gone! As it
rolled up beside the platform we had to restrain ourselves from getting
on it too eagerly. But we were at last in our seats; the whistle blew,
and the train moved out of the station.