So they wandered up Gower Street and the Euston Road into the park, and
there, for the first time in her life, Clytie heard a man confess his
love for her and ask her to marry him. He was only a boy after all, but
he was in great earnest. Clytie felt humbled, almost guilty, and yet a
great, unknown pleasure thrilled through her. Although she knew that the
sooner and more summarily the interview was brought to an end the better
for both herself and him, she could scarcely resist the temptation of
allowing him to pour out the fulness of his boyish love for her.
She suddenly found herself listening to the sound but not the meaning
of his words, her senses filled with the sweetness of the new sensations
and the pure May sunlight that flooded the trees and the gay flower-bed
opposite the bench where they were sitting. Then she realised her
situation, and in a few kind words, harder to speak than she would have
expected, dismissed him.
And that was the end of the matter. He went off whither young men in his
predicament generally betake themselves, and Clytie returned slowly home
to Russell Square.
When she had reached her own room she went deliberately up to the glass
and scanned her features. Then she laughed a strange, contented little
laugh, and taking off her hat and gloves, went downstairs to tea. She
had advanced several steps along the road to knowledge.
Three years! How quickly they passed! How sure yet dimly working were
their influences! If they were years of probation and self-restraint for
Clytie, they also brought with them softening influences. Hitherto her
life had been one of revolt and harsh, crude judgments that had turned
away friendship and had left her solitary. Mutual misconception and
misunderstanding had crushed sisterly love. Her heart had never been
touched by real affection. Now she had friends, real ones, in the
Farquharsons whom she could love for their own sakes, and pleasant,
sympathetic ones in her companions at the Slade School and at the
studio. She learned, too, the sweetness of active protection and
helpfulness. Her aunt, though somewhat stronger-fibred than the rest of
the Davenants, possessed their essential physical characteristics.
Her health, which had been failing for some years, gradually gave way
altogether. During the few months of her last illness she depended
entirely upon Clytie for care and tenderness. It was a new, strange
experience for the girl. She learned to love the faded elderly lady
who bore her sufferings so calmly, so cheerfully. Both Mrs. Blather and
Janet offered to come and nurse her, but Miss Davenant would have none
but Clytie. If this period of selflessness and sacrifice had lasted, who
knows what sweet effacement of individuality might have resulted? Who
knows into what channels of pity and sublime endeavours of mercy the
girl's full, ardent nature might have been directed? But the high gods
had ordained otherwise. Miss Davenant died, and Clytie again found