“God forbid!” he said in a low voice. “I shall never apply to you the
conventional canons of misjudgment. I take what you have said to me as a
sacred trust, and thank you from my heart for thinking well enough of me
to give me your confidence. You must never ask me such a question again,
Clytie, for it would wound me.”
“I believe you, Kent,” she said, raising her eyes to his in her frank
manner. “And I was wrong to say you _might_ have helped me, for you can
now. And you will?”
“With my last breath,” said Kent simply. “It has been the torturing
regret of the last eighteen months that, much as I wished, I could never
do a hand's turn for you.”
“But what can I do for you in repayment, my poor Kent?”
“Be your own bright, eager self again. Throw yourself into your
painting, and the result I will take as my reward. It will be my
influence gleaming through your genius, and it will be sweet to me. Oh,
Clytie! you are wrong. A life is seldom so wrecked that it cannot be
reconstructed, for that implies the utter loss of faith. A grain of
faith in anything can move mountains; if one hasn't it, then it is time
to put an end to life altogether, it becomes one's duty not to live.”
“I came within an ace of that at the beginning of the year,” said
Clytie, with a sad retrospective smile. “Some time I may tell you why. I
thought of dying, but then it seemed cowardly. Perhaps it was I had more
curiosity to go on seeing how the world went on than I was aware of. And
now, Kent, you have put things in a new light before me, and how can I
thank you for all your goodness?”
“I have told you,” he replied, with a smile.
CHAPTER XXIV.