The next morning, after writing her letters and attending to her
household duties, Clytie went into her studio with the praiseworthy
intention of stimulating the artistic impulse that had been flagging for
so long. Kent was right, she thought. Her life could be reconstructed.
She would begin her laborious art life again, resume it seriously as a
profession, put her pictures into the market once more. Amid the many
confusing thoughts and emotions resulting from her conversation with
Kent, one idea had sprung in connection with Jack. She could not adopt
the boy. That was a wild feminine craving, somewhat selfish, springing
out of a bitter hour when fairer hopes were crushed. It cost her a sigh
to resign; but she trusted to Kent's judgment, and her mind was so far
at rest. Yet if it could lie in her power to help Jack materially in
after years, when a little capital would be worth all the world to him,
she felt that she would have wrought some good for one human creature
at least in her somewhat self-centred life. And then Kent's advice as
to her art mingled and combined with these thoughts, and the outcome was
the sudden idea that the proceeds of the sale of her pictures would,
in course of time, form a very considerable fund. She clapped her hands
with delight when this occurred to her. A mountain of weariness seemed
removed. In the spontaneity of new workings she scribbled a hasty line
to Kent and had it posted with the address scarcely dry.
“I am going to paint _seriously_, and _sell_ my pictures, and devote the
proceeds to a fund for Jack. Shall I?”