“Oh, why do you mention that?” she cried. “The only painful thing in
all the trip. Something that I saw at Dinan--I was put out. Was I very
disagreeable? It did not refer to you in any way, dear friend.”
“Pardon me if I have touched on a sore place,” replied Kent. “I find I
have a good deal to learn in these matters. Will you make a compact
with me to tell me if ever I offend you? Your friendship has grown so
valuable and dear a thing to me that the idea of running the risk of
losing it makes me--what shall I say? Well, I couldn't bear it. I don't
often talk like this,--sentiment comes out of me very awkwardly,--but
when I do say anything of the sort I mean it. Believe me.”
Clytie put out her gloved hand and touched him lightly on the arm.
She, too, felt that she had certain need of him. A little thrill of
tenderness passed through her as she turned her head towards him to
reply.
“Didn't I call you 'dear friend' just now? And I meant it, too. You are
too honest, too single-hearted, ever to offend me, as you say. If I am
ever rebellious with you it will be my own fault, and I shall know it.
And as I really have got some common sense, I shall be sorry for it. But
you won't expect me to tell you so every time, will you? You will have
to take it for granted.”
“You always make yourself out worse than you are,” replied Kent. “Very
few people know you. The Farquharsons, myself, Winifred, do. I should
like to go with you wherever you go, and tell folks not to believe you,
to prove to them what a----”
“Oh, stop! stop!” cried Clytie, with a little laugh. “This sojourn in
the land of compliments has infected you. Oh, no; I am ordinary; not
bad, not good. You see, if I had had anybody to care for specially, and
who cared for me, I might have shown up differently. I have hardly had a
chance of seeming otherwise than selfish. Opportunity makes the saint as
much as it makes the thief.”
Kent meditated, framing a reply. The right words would not come until
it seemed that too long an interval had elapsed. There was another
silence--one of those pleasant ones between friends when they feel in
sympathy. Clytie at last broke it.
“Would you have had such a conversation as this with a man friend?”
“No--at least--well, no. Why?”
“Oh, nothing. The idea occurred to me,” replied Clytie.
CHAPTER IX.
The long autumn months rolled on, bringing little new to Clytie or to
Kent. Clytie continued to paint her small _genre_ pictures, but with
a more certain touch, a restraint which a deeper insight into life
compelled. They did not satisfy her now, however, as they used to. She
had more articulate longings after an art which should be higher, more
comprehensive, more responsive to certain subtler and at the same time
more stirring impulses within her.