She threw herself into an armchair by the fire, with a little sigh. She
had been unusually quiet during the drive home.
“And what’s making you miserable?” asked Vandeleur, in a tone of
concern.
“I wish you had n’t done that, Van,” she said, with a wistful puckering
of her forehead.
“Ah, there! now you’re vexed with me. There never was an animal like me
for treading on my dearest friends. I’m like the elephant you may have
heard of, that squashed the mother of a brood of chickens by mistake,
and, taking it to heart, just like me, gathered the little ones under
his wing, and, sitting down upon them, said: ‘Ah, be aisy now, I’ll be
a mother to you’; he did n’t hurt the chickens’ feelings exactly--but it
was mistaken kindness. Was it your feelings I trampled on?”
“Ah, no, Van,” said Yvonne, smiling. “But don’t you see, it was doing a
thing I can never pay you back for.”
“Faith, the sight of your sweet face is payment enough.”
“But you can have that for nothing--such as it is.”
“It’s the sweetest face that ever was made,” said the Irishman, flinging
a freshly-lighted cigarette into the grate behind him. “I’d cut off my
head any day to get a sight of it But are you wanting to pay me more
than that? By my soul, there’s just an easy way out of your difficulty,
Yvonne!”
He looked down at her, his face very red, and questioning in his
eyes. She caught his glance and sat upright, stretching out her hand
appealingly. Men had looked at her like that before,--craving for
something she had not in her to give. She had always, on such occasions,
felt what a shallow, poverty-stricken little soul she was. What was in
her that could bring the trouble into men’s eyes? Here was Van, the kind
friend and good comrade, going the way of the others. She was
frightened and distressed.
“Oh, Van, don’t!” she cried. “Not that. I can’t bear it!”
She covered her face with her hands, as he came quickly forward and
leaned over her chair. “Just a tiny bit of love, Yvonne. So small that
you would n’t miss it. I could do with it all, but I know I can’t get
that. I only ask for a sample. Come, Yvonne.”
But Yvonne shook her head.
“Don’t, Van,” she repeated, piteously; “you’re hurting me.”
Her tone was so pathetic that the big man drew himself up, thumped
his chest, and seized his hat. “I’m a great big brute to come and take
advantage of you like this. Of course you couldn’t care about a great
fat bounder like me. And you’re half dropping with weariness. It’s a
villain I am. I’ll leave you to your sleep, poor little woman. Good
night.”
He held out his hand, and she allowed hers to remain in it for a moment.
“I have n’t been ungrateful to you, have I?” she asked. “I did n’t mean
to be. But I thought you were different.”
“How, different?”
“That you would never make love to me. Don’t, Van, please. It would
spoil it all.”