A cloud settled on Sir Hildebrand's mind through which he saw immediate
things murkily. He passed days of unaccustomed loneliness and
inaction. He walked the familiar streets of London like one in a
dream. One afternoon he found himself gazing with unspeculative eye
into the window of a small Roman Catholic Repository where crucifixes
and statues of the Virgin and Child and rosaries and religious books
and pictures were exposed for sale. Until realisation of the objects
at which he had been staring dawned upon his mind, he had not been
aware of the nature of the shop. The shadow of a smile passed over his
face. He entered. An old man with a long white beard was behind the
counter.
"Do you keep scourges?" asked Sir Hildebrand.
"No, sir," replied the old man, somewhat astonished.
"That's unfortunate--very unfortunate," said Sir Hildebrand, regarding
him dully. "I'm in need of one."
"Even among certain of the religious orders the Discipline is forbidden
nowadays," replied the old man.
"Among certain others it is practised?"
"I believe so."
"Then scourges are procurable. I will ask you to get one--or have one
made according to religious pattern. I will pay fifteen shillings for
it."
"It could not possibly cost that--a mere matter of wood and string."
"I will pay neither more nor less," said Sir Hildebrand, laying on the
counter the cheque which he had endorsed and his card. "I--I have made
a vow. It's a matter of conscience. Kindly send it to the club
address."
He walked out of the shop somewhat lighter of heart, his instinct for
the scrupulous satisfied. The abominable cheque no longer burned
through letter-case and raiment and body and corroded his soul. He had
devoted the money to the purpose for which it was ear-marked. The
precision was soothed. In puzzling darkness he had also taken an
enormous psychological stride.