So Sonia opened the manuscript at random and played, and again it was
an echo of Geoffrey's symphony. He sank on a chair like a man crushed
by an overwhelming fatality, and held his head in his hands.
"I oughtn't to have done it," he groaned. "But it was more than me.
The thing overmastered me, it haunted me so that I couldn't sleep, and
the more it haunted me the more it became my own, my very own. It was
too big to lose."
Sonia held him with scared eyes.
"What are you talking of?" she asked.
"The way I came to write the Symphony. It's like a nightmare." He
rose. "A couple of years ago," said he, "I bought a bundle of old
music at a second-hand shop. It contained a collection of
eighteenth-century stuff which I wanted. I took the whole lot, and on
going through it, found a clump of old, discoloured manuscript partly
in faded brown ink, partly in pencil. It was mostly rough notes. I
tried it out of curiosity. The composition was feeble and the
orchestration childish--I thought it the work of some dead and
forgotten amateur--but it was crammed full of ideas, crammed full of
beauty. I began tinkering it about, to amuse myself. The more I
worked on it the more it fascinated me. It became an obsession. Then
I pitched the old score away and started it on my own."
"The _maestro_ sold a lot of old music about that time," said Sonia.
The young man threw up his hands. "It's a fatality, an awful fatality.
My God," he cried, "to think that I of all men should have stolen
Angelo Fardetti's music!"
"No wonder he fainted yesterday," said Sonia.
It was catastrophe. Both regarded it in remorseful silence. Sonia
said at last:
"You'll have to explain."
"Of course, of course. But what must the dear old fellow be thinking
of me? What else but that I've got hold of this surreptitiously, while
he was out of the room? What else but that I'm a mean thief?"
"He loves you, dear, enough to forgive you anything."
"It's the Unforgivable Sin. I'm wiped out. I cease to exist as an
honest man. But I had no idea," he cried, with the instinct of
self-defence, "that I had come so near him. I thought I had just got a
theme here and there. I thought I had recast all the odds and ends
according to my own scheme." He ran his eye over a page or two of the
score. "Yes, this is practically the same as the old rough notes. But
there was a lot, of course, I couldn't use. Look at that, for
instance." He indicated a passage.
"I can't read it like you," said Sonia. "I must play it."
She turned again to the piano, and played the thin, uninspired music
that had no relation to the Symphony in E flat, and her eyes filled
with tears as she remembered poignantly what the old man had told her
of his Song of Life. She went on and on until the music quickened into
one of the familiar themes; and the tears fell, for she knew how poorly
it was treated.