Jeremy, with a lamentable lack of universality, thanked God on his
knees for His great mercy. If Mistress Wotherspoon had not been
confined to her bed she would not have allowed her niece to wander at
will with a notorious scarecrow over the Bullingford meadows, and if
Barbara had not been blind she could not have walked happily in his
company and hung trustfully on his arm. For days she was but a wonder
and a wild desire. Her beauty, her laughter, her wit, her simplicity,
her bravery, bewildered him. It was enough to hear the music of her
voice, to feel the fragrance of her presence, to thrill at her light
touch. He, Jeremy Wendover, from whose distortion all human beings,
his life long, had turned shuddering away, to have this ineffable
companionship! It transcended thought. At last--it was one night, as
he lay awake, remembering how they had walked that afternoon, not
arm-in-arm, but hand-in-hand--the amazing, dazzling glory of a
possibility enveloped him. She was blind. She could never see his
deformity. Had God listened to his prayer and delivered this fair and
beloved woman into his keeping? He shivered all night long in an
ecstasy of happiness, rose at dawn and mounted guard at Barbara's gate.
But as he waited, foodless, for the thrilling sight of her, depression
came and sat heavy on his shoulders until he felt that in daring to
think of her in the way of marriage he was committing an abominable
crime.
When she came, fresh as the morning, bareheaded, her beautiful hair
done up in a club behind, into the little field, and he tried to call
to her, his tongue was dry and he could utter no sound. Accidentally
he dropped his stick, which clattered down the bars of the gate. She
laughed. He entered the enclosure.
"I knew I should find you there," she cried, and sped toward him.
"How did you know?" he asked.
"'By the pricking of my thumb,'" she quoted gaily; and then, as he took
both her outstretched hands, she drew near him and whispered: "and by
the beating of my heart."
His arms folded around her and he held her tight against him,
stupefied, dazed, throbbing, vainly trying to find words. At last he
said huskily:
"God has sent you to be the joy and comfort of a sorely stricken man.
I accept it because it is His will. I will cherish you as no man has
ever cherished woman before. My love for you, my dear, is as
infinite--as infinite--oh, God!"
Speech failed him. He tore his arms away from her and fell sobbing at
her feet and kissed the skirts of her gown.
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