He did not feel at all noble. On the contrary, very ignominiously
disappointed. His iridescent scheme had vanished like a soap-bubble.
Geoffrey Colman had intimated, in his letter, with much deprecatory
circumlocution, that, on looking lately into his affairs, he found them
by no means as prosperous as he had imagined; there were depreciations
in lands, unlucky investments, mortgages; in fine, much as he had
desired it, he would be able to do nothing at all for Hugh. And then he
was practically moribund.
Hugh shrugged off the disappointment. To ask his sisters for a loan out
of their comparatively small fortune, upon no security more tangible
than the promise of his brotherly efforts to repay them, was absolutely
impossible. One comfort remained, for which he thanked the god of
chance: the opportune arrival of the letter had effectually precluded
his proposal.
He returned to London, where a sudden stress of work awaited him. But
the briefs of a criminal advocate, chiefly engaged in small cases, are
not marked very high. Moreover, ill-luck attended him. After three
of his clients were convicted, he made desperate efforts to secure
a favourable verdict for a fourth, and his failure roused his
exasperation. His book of poems came out just at this time, to be less
glowingly received by literary journals than the two previous ones. They
complained of tenuity of thought, over-elaboration; advised, finally, a
robuster view, a franker acceptance of the emotional facts of life. He
threw his press-cuttings angrily into the waste-paper basket. What did
the fools know about it? It was the only sphere in which he could divest
himself of his accursed emotionality. He turned to Irene. Yet even her
tribute fell short of its customary wholeness. She noticed a tendency
towards the symbolism of the modern French school in his new volume.
She quoted a line, said it suggested Stéphane Mallarmé. Hugh broke out
tempestuously.
“Why don’t you call me a Decadent at once--an artificer of phrase--an
exhausted idealist? That’s what your criticism comes to. You feel that
I’m on the down grade, and you don’t like to tell me.”
“Oh, no, Hugh!” she expostulated. “Much of it is as exquisite as ever.
But I love all your work to be exquisite. It’s only here and there that
the meaning is not quite clear and the language appears forced.”