The idea of her husband’s goodness and wisdom brought tenderness into
her eyes, changing her expression to one of wonderful simplicity. Hugh
made no reply, but leaned back and watched her across the compartment
which they alone occupied. The central light, that fell full upon her,
showed nothing, in her face, of the practical, capable woman of affairs,
only the soft charm of girlhood, that lingered still in her eight and
twenty years. Presently she bent forward.
“Why do you look at me like that?” she asked, smiling.
“I was dipping into the poem of your face, and reading my favourite
bits,” he replied, half seriously.
“What are they?”
“Oh, I am not going to talk Shakespearian comedy to you,” he answered,
laughing. “So you needn’t expect it.”
The jest put her into a mood of light frivolity. They discussed faces.
Some were sermons, some were Hymns, Ancient and Modern, some were
comic operas, some were post-office directories, whilst others were
the collected works of minor poets. She wondered what her own was.
Hugh suggested an ode. The comparison pleased her and she thanked him
prettily. Really, she had been a most ugly child. Just as if she had
been at a feast of features and stolen the scraps. The foolish chat took
them to Sunnington. He walked with her as far as the gate of her house.
“When are you coming to dinner?”
“The day after to-morrow,” he said, after a moment’s reflection.
He shook hands with her and turned homeward with a buoyant step. He
felt happy, exhilarated, a different man from the bereaved and depressed
bridegroom who had set out in the morning. The day had opened with a
wretched sense of loss; it closed with a glad consciousness of gain. He
wondered at the change. The fact was that the small but varied incidents
of the day, bringing him into close touch with the external world of
work, action, thought and sympathy, had stimulated a somewhat flagging
moral energy. He was conscious of this as he dwelt upon them. Yes, these
were the things that made life worth the living. These together formed
the heart of life. Without them he would perish of inanition. Love, even
sweet, wedded love a fortnight old, was but the fringe, the grace, the
colour, the what you will of adornment of life; but its heart--ah, no!
He was honest and dishonest with himself at once. The conviction that
he had spent his first day of absence from his wife, in whole-hearted
enjoyment of the outer world, was too absolute for him to accept
it otherwise than frankly. But deep down in his soul were
warning glimmerings of a truth to which he defiantly blinded his
eyes--glimmerings that duskly revealed a love that might be the heart of
life, rich, throbbing, vitalising, such as his feelings for Minna were
not.
He drew her letter from his pocket and read it through again. His
heart smote him sorely for not feeling more miserable. Instinctively
he conjured up the hours of sweet intoxication and caught at their
lingering glamour.