She pressed his arm tightly. “I shall go to sleep so happy.”
So he promised and the girl’s face brightened. Soon afterwards they
parted. Minna drove homewards in a cab, kissing her hand to him as
it moved off, and Hugh walked along towards Lancaster Gate, deep in
troubled thought. It was an ill-starred marriage, already he regretted
his folly and his weakness. If they had shared the same home, living a
common life, he felt that he could have maintained a constantly tender
attitude towards her, by means of a passive acceptance of his lot. But
in the present circumstances, the nature of things demanded of him
active demonstration. The necessary intriguing was repugnant to him. To
visit his wife like a thief in the night was an act from which he shrank
as from something mean and degrading. A passionate love would have swept
away pettier feelings. It is only such a love that laughs at locksmiths;
a waning passion be-bestows on them irritable curses. The prospect of
entering The Lindens, late at night, by a window which Minna secretly
unlatched, and creeping thief-wise up the stairs to her apartments, had
lost its edge of romance. He had promised, however, and it became a
disagreeable duty.
It damped his spirits for the evening. Even Irene could not cheer him.
Conversation degenerated into futile bar gossip between Gerard and
himself, which they protracted sleepily till a late hour. When at last
he found himself with Minna, who had taken infinite pains to make
her beauty as attractive as possible, she reopened, with feminine
inconsistency, the chapter of the Merriams and sent him away, after a
little, angry and disheartened.
His unqualified refusal to allow his regard for her to affect his
relations with his friends gradually magnified itself, through the
girl’s jealousy, into a great wrong. Once at the turn of a road she met
him with them face to face. The after-glow of laughter was in Irene’s
eyes. Minna acknowledged their salute with sullen stiffness, and when
Hugh fell back a pace and turned to her with outstretched hand, she
dismissed him angrily. Her face wore the hardened expression he had seen
on it once before. Then he had attributed it to strength. But now it
seemed to reveal only sulky ill-breeding. A phrase defining her flashed
through his mind. She looked common.
“What a peculiarly disagreeable young woman,” said Gerard, as he
rejoined his friends.
Hugh winced. Although not ill pleased to see that Gerard had no
suspicions of the relations between himself and Minna, the outspoken
judgment on his wife was anything but gratifying.
He struggled, however, to atone by gentleness for his grievous fault
in marrying her. But it was a futile task to try to convince a jealous,
untrained girl, who reasoned from her appetites and argued from her
passions. At last he gave it up with a helpless gesture of impatience.
“It seems beyond your nature to comprehend the bond between the Merriams
and myself,” he said, one day.