The result of her knowledge of this fact in the lives of Hugh and Gerard
was an added tenderness of gratitude in her feelings towards the former.
During the past few months he had been slipping somewhat apart from her.
He had lost his old buoyancy of manner, and it was easy for her feminine
intuition to perceive that the change had some radical cause. Now she
blamed herself for not having taken the initiative, and offered him more
openly the aid of her friendship. The chance of doing so occurred on the
following Sunday, when, in response to an urgent little note, Hugh came
to lunch. Gerard was absent. Business had summoned him to Edinburgh,
where he was likely to remain some time. The two sat down to table
alone together, and, while the servant was in the room, talked of divers
matters: the waif who had been admitted into St. Katherine’s school,
the Institution which was flourishing, and extending its sphere of
benevolence. At last she touched upon literary matters.
“When are we to see a new volume?”
He lifted his shoulders slightly, and fingered the stem of his old
German wine glass.
“When I have regained my lost youth,” he said, ironically. “One must
have enthusiasm even for that kind of rubbish. Don’t look so concerned,”
he added, with a laugh; “I’m not hypochondriac yet. My view of life is
only growing a little more materialistic, that is all. I share Peter
Bell’s conception of the primrose.”
He quoted the lines jestingly, and, the meal being over, drew out his
cigarette case and began to smoke.
“You are talking for the sake of talking,” said Irene. “I wish you
wouldn’t. Hugh,” she continued, with a certain shy softness that had its
charm, “don’t be vexed with me. Tell me what is changing you. You know
that I owe to you the existence of all that is dearest to me in
the world, and I long so to pay you back a little in the help that
friendship can give.”
“You can’t do it now, Renie,” he said, abruptly. “Afterwards you may.
That is, if you and Gerard don’t think me a pitiful scamp. You won’t
have long to wait.”