“It’s a godsend to have someone to think of pleasing,” she cried, with
sudden petulance. “Whom have I else? Papa and papa’s friends? They
never look at me unless I put on something barbaric--gold and silver
and precious stones. Then they can reckon me up in pounds, shillings and
pence. One grows weary of dressing for one’s own pleasure. Life gets
on one’s nerves like a chapter out of the Book of Ecclesiastes--I don’t
suppose you ever feel like that--because you’re a man.”
“I wish I could make life less lonely for you,” he said, kindly.
“I wish you could.”
“Why do you keep Mrs. Merriam so at arm’s length? She would do a great
deal for you, if you would let her.”
“I can’t,” said the girl. “I don’t know why. Why do you think so much of
her?”
“Because she is the finest woman I know.”
“Or simply because----” she checked herself--“No, I didn’t mean
that--but----”
“But what?”
“Oh, can’t you guess? I want you to estimate me a little, by myself--not
measure me by a standard--as you do--there!”
She leant forward, with one hand drooping over her knee, and looked up
at him with moist eyes, and behind the moisture burned the longing folly
of a woman.
“I don’t want anybody else to please. You are enough for me. All the
world.”
Hugh had come prepared. Her sensuous charm had long woven itself around
him. He had long known that a touch from him could awaken slumbering
volcanoes; that in a moment of madness he would one day give that touch.
Even now his pulses beat fast. He was flesh and blood, though his verse
was marble. Yet he kept a curb upon himself. He reached out his hand and
took her fingers.
“You mustn’t look at me like that. I am not a bad man. But you will make
me say things both of us may be sorry for.”
“I don’t care,” she whispered. “Say anything.” The moment had come. In a
fraction of a second he could have her youth throbbing in his arms. With
an effort of will he threw back her hand and started to his feet. She
shrank away frightened.
“Listen, Minna, before we make fools of ourselves. Where is this going
to end? Have you thought of it? Use your intelligence instead of your
passions. I am speaking brutally to you. I know it. It’s our only chance
of salvation. You are throwing yourself away--into perdition perhaps. Do
you know that?”
He stood, regarding her sternly; resolved to set her upon his own
intellectual plane; to put before her serious issues; at the least, to
throw open the floodgates for her pride. Her face paled slightly, and
she asked, with quivering lip: “Don’t you care for me--a little?”
He swung his arm in earnest gesture. “Care for you? Of course I care for
you. Do you suppose I should be here to-night if I didn’t--not being a
scoundrel?”
“Then why are you so unkind?”