“Don’t make yourself miserable with false analogies,” said Cahusac,
philosophically. “I’m sick of the rails and I want to get off them.
For that reason I asked what your plans were--I meant for the immediate
future.”
“I shall give up the bar,” said Hugh, with a shudder, “at least
criminal work. I said I was a ruined man. That’s why.”
“You persist in misunderstanding,” said the other with a smile. “You
forget I came to ask a favour--I am thinking of going abroad for a
holiday, taking it now instead of in the inevitable August. Wife doesn’t
want to go. I am companionless. Will you take pity on me?”
Hugh’s impulsive nature responded to all the motives of the kindly act.
He seized Cahusac’s hand.
“I won’t thank you. There are some deeds of friendship beyond thanks.
I’ll come with you all the more gladly now that I have told you. But I
should like to see the Merriams before we start.”
Cahusac lifted his eyebrows. “You haven’t seen them yet?”
Hugh received discomfort from his glance. He explained vaguely.
“Take your own time,” said Cahusac, again rising to go. “Things are
slack just now. I can get away pretty easily.”
The Good Samaritan departed, and Hugh remained for some time speculative
at the window, looking out into the sunshine. He had known Cahusac and
his wife fairly intimately for several years. They were friends, too, of
the Merriams. But hitherto he had shrouded his private life from them in
his customary reserve. He wondered now at the indiscreet expansiveness
of which he had been guilty. The secret was safe enough with Cahusac.
But would he not have betrayed it, just the same, to a less scrupulous
friend, who had come to him that morning with a sympathetic face? The
thought gave qualms. The past year had loosened his character. The past
month had played havoc with it; had weakened, too, his firm grasp of
logical issues. Cahusac had enabled his mind to gain fresh hold. He
faced the consequences of Irene’s action with the pain of a great
dismay.
The physical longing for air and sun and forgetfulness in quick motion
lured him out of doors. He rode hard through Sunnington and along the
Heath Road until he reached the open country. He traversed many miles
that day, going along lonely stretches of clear road at racing speed
which brought the thrill into his veins and the lust of physical life
that floods thought. He was in that condition of being which, in a more
elemental age, would have carried him baresark into the joy of battle:
modern civilisation substitutes the bicycle. Perhaps, after all, we are
not more grotesque than our ancestors.