The dusk was falling when he returned by the Heath Road, dusty and
thoroughly fatigued. He glanced wistfully at the Merriams’ house as
he sped by. The lights were not yet lit. It bore a strange aspect of
desertion. For a moment he felt the impulse to turn and seek admittance,
get through the strange first interview, whose indefinite postponement
was growing stranger still. Irene’s sensitiveness he could understand;
besides, she had written twice. But Gerard’s silence was unaccountable.
Was he waiting, despite Irene’s messages, for him to take the
initiative? The temptation was strong; but obedience to Irene prevailed.
He went on, letting his weary mind drift on trivial matters. He would
have a meal, smoke, and sleep like a log. It would be the first sound,
unstirring sleep for many weeks. The night before he had had a shivering
dream of Minna, which had kept him awake till morning. Where was she? He
wondered vaguely.
Suddenly a figure crossing the road in front of him caused him to ring
his bell. The figure turned. He recognised Irene. In a second he had
dismounted and was by her side. She extended her hand, looked at him
frankly in the waning light.
“Fate has arranged it for us,” he said. “If you knew how I have been
hungering for speech with you!”
“I couldn’t send for you,” she replied. “There were reasons----”
“I know. I have waited patiently. But you feel what I have to express
somehow to you and Gerard.”
“You mustn’t see Gerard,” she said, with a little break in her voice. “I
think it would be best if you did not see me, either. What is the good
of words to thank me? We understand each other too well to need them.
Couldn’t you go away for a holiday somewhere? It would be the best for
all of us. You mustn’t be hurt--indeed, you mustn’t. But you will do
what I ask you?”
“Anything in the wide world. In fact, I am going abroad with Cahusac. I
was only waiting until I had seen you. But I don’t understand----”
He stopped, regarded her anxiously. In spite of the falling darkness, he
could see that she looked thoroughly ill.
“I may as well tell you at once,” she said, with quiet abruptness,
moving a step nearer to him and laying her fingers on the bicycle
handle. “You are making the same mistake as I did--reckoning on Gerard’s
acquiescence. He is unspeakably angry. We have quarrelled over it. That
is why I didn’t send for you. If you could do anything, I should ask
you. But it is a matter solely concerning the two of us. Time will set
it right.”
She spoke so quietly that he never suspected the truth. On the other
hand, he could well realise that, Gerard not consenting, the public
sacrifice of his honour should arouse his furious indignation. His
conception of the breach between Irene and Gerard was sufficient in
itself to keep him speechless with pain and remorse.
“It wasn’t your fault, dear Hugh,” she said, at length, comfortingly.
“And don’t think I regret what I did. Gerard will see it in the same
light as myself some day.”