“If I were in the habit of vowing to perform impossible extravagances,
that would be the sign of a vain man. But—apart from the Acts of
God—and I suppose technically we must classify the wiping out of my
life’s work under that heading—I have carried out every wild-cat scheme
I’ve deliberately set my mind to. So when I say I’m coming into John
Baltazar’s own, I know what I’m talking about, and that’s the sign of a
proud man. And, my dear,” said he after a pause, occupied in filling and
lighting his pipe, “I think this jolly old sin of mine keeps me from
making an ass of myself in all sorts of other ways.”
Swiftly she applied these last words to the relations between them and
confessed their truth. A vain man would have pestered the life out of
her, confident in attaining his ends—ends as beautiful and spiritual as
you please—until through sheer weariness she yielded. Such a one would
enunciate and firmly believe in the proposition—she had not spent
twenty years among men in angelic ignorance of their
idiosyncrasies—that just hammer, hammer hard enough, and a woman will
be bound to love you in the end. But there were others, with a deadly,
sinful pride like Baltazar, who, scorning the vain, maintained the
dignified attitude of the late lamented King Canute. He would not claim
the impossible.
But this was a far cry from the Imperial Government Mission to the Far
East. She asked, by way of escape from personal argument:
“After all, this Chinese proposition is a first-rate thing. Is it so
very repugnant to you to go back?”
He stood over her with his clenched fists in the air.
“My dear,” said he, “you talked last year some silly rot about a locust.
I know the beast better than you do. It ate all those precious years I
spent in that infernal country. The best years of my life. I’m starting
now at fifty-one where I ought to have started at thirty. That damned
Chinese locust has robbed me of everything. You, Godfrey, the vital life
of England, and a brilliant career with Heaven knows what kind of power
for good. I hold the country in the most deadly detestation. Nothing in
this wide world would induce me to go back—not even if they wanted to
make me an Emperor. I’ve finished with it for ever and ever. I swear
it.”
“You needn’t look as if I were urging you to it,” she laughed. “I’m sure
I don’t want to lose you.”
“All right then,” said Baltazar. “Let us talk of something else.”
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