In these early months of struggle to enter his kingdom, Baltazar came
nearer happiness than he had ever done before. A man younger, or more
habitually dependent on women, would have counted the one thing wanting
as the one prime essential and would have regarded everything else as
naught. But Baltazar, although wistfully recognizing the one missing
element, was far too full of the lust of others to sit down and make
moan. Marcelle gave him all she could, a devoted friendship, a tender
intimacy, a sympathetic understanding. He wanted infinitely more, his
man’s nature clamoured for the whole of her. But what she gave was of
enormous comfort. It was a question of taking it or leaving it. Perhaps
had his love been less, he would have left it. Love me all in all or not
at all, and be hanged to you! That might have been his attitude.
Besides, he knew that by the high-handed proceeding of the primitive man
he could at any moment carry her off to the cave in Sussex Gardens. In a
way, it was his own choice to live celibate. Sooner accept the
graciousness she could give freely than take by force what she would
yield grudgingly. Let him be happy with what he had.
For he had much.
Godfrey, learning to walk on his artificial foot, a miracle of running
contrivance, and allowed, as it seemed, almost indefinite leave until he
should reach perfection of movement, took up his quarters in his house,
at first almost angrily, compelled against his will by the infernal
dancing eyes and the pathetic appeal behind them, and after a short
while very contentedly, appreciating his strange father’s almost womanly
solicitude for his comfort, his facilities for leading his own young
man’s life. Far more attractive the well-appointed house, with a
snuggery of his own made over for him to have and to hold in perpetuity,
with a table always spread for any friends he cared to ask to lunch or
dine, with an alert intellect for companion ever ready to give of its
best, with opportunities of meeting the odd, fascinating personalities
whom the editor of _The New Universe_ had gathered round him, with an
atmosphere of home all the more pleasant because of its unfamiliarity,
than the bleak room at an over-crowded hotel, or the cramped Half Moon
Street lodgings which in his boyish experience were the inevitable
condition of a lonely young man’s existence in London. Once he said:
“I know it’s a delicate point, sir, but I should be awfully glad if
you’d let me contribute—pay my way, you know. It’s really embarrassing
for me to accept all this—I can’t explain—it’s horrid. But I do wish
you would let me, sir.”
This was just after breakfast one morning. Baltazar paused in the act of
filling his pipe.