But it hung around the thoughts of Baltazar for the rest of the night.
Quong Ho was young. Quong Ho had looked upon a daughter of men and found
her fair. In his Chinese self-repressing way he had had his romance. Now
it was over. He pitied Quong Ho. Yet, after a year or so of probation,
the young man, lusty in his youth and confident in his future, would
return to his native land heart-whole, with all the romance of life
still before him—whilst he, Baltazar, would re-enter a world from which
all such things were blotted out for ever. For what of romance could lie
before a man of fifty—one who had lost all touch with women and women’s
ways? For the first time a fear of loneliness sent a shiver through him.
It was not natural for a man to have neither wife nor child. It was but
half an existence; a deliberate spurning of duties and glories and
fulfilled achievement. And his own one romance? Had he been justified in
destroying its gossamer web? It was all very long ago; but the beauty of
it lingered exquisite in his heart. Had he been a mere fool? Were the
results to him and to her worth the sacrifice? And, after all, was he
sure that the results to her had been beneficial rather than disastrous?
He sighed, consoled himself with the reflections that she must now have
around her a family of sons and daughters, and that if ever she gave him
a thought, it was to bless Heaven for her narrow escape; and, so
fortified, he went on with his work.
When he awoke the next morning, the chastened retrospective mood had
passed. After his tea and cold tub, he sat down to the table by the
eastern window through which the morning sun was streaming, setting the
gorse ablaze and the heather blood-red, and attacked the final chapter
of his epoch-making Treatise on the Theory of Groups. The thrill of a
great thing accomplished held him as he wrote. Such moments were worth
living. He breakfasted with the appetite of a man who had earned a right
to the material blessings of life. He went out, groomed the old grey
mare and cleaned out the stable and dug up a patch of ground, rejoicing,
like a young man, in his strength and in the fresh beauty of the day. On
his return to his study he reviewed affectionately the monuments of two
years’ labour. The Treatise of the Theory of Groups, all but complete,
lay in one neat pile of manuscript. Another represented further serious
adventures into the Analytical Geometry of a Four-Dimensional Space than
mortal man had ever undertaken. Who could tell whither those adventures
could lead? Pure mathematics had demonstrated the existence of the
planet Neptune in space of three dimensions. Pure mathematics applied to
four dimensions might prove and explain many transcendental phenomena.
The next world might be four-dimensional and the spirits of the dead who
inhabit it could easily enter confined three-dimensional space. That was
Cayley’s ingenious theory of Ghosts. You could carry it further to space