I had to resume my intimacy with Boyce. The blind and lonely man craved
it and claimed it. It would be an unmeaning pretence of modesty to
under-estimate the value to him of my friendship. He was a man of
intense feelings. Torture had closed his heart to the troops of friends
that so distinguished a soldier might have had. He granted admittance
but to three, his mother, Betty and--for some unaccountable
reason--myself. On us he concentrated all the strength of his
affection. Mind you, it was not a case of a maimed creature clinging
for support to those who cared for him. In his intercourse with me, he
never for a moment suggested that he was seeking help or solace in his
affliction. On the contrary, he ruled it out of the conditions of
social life. He was as brave as you please. In his laughing scorn of
blindness he was the bravest man I have ever known. He learned the
confidence of the blind with marvellous facility. His path through
darkness was a triumphant march.
Sometimes, when he re-fought old battles and planned new ones, forecast
the strategy of the Great Advance, word-painted scenes and places, drew
character sketches of great leaders and quaint men, I forgot the
tragedy of Althea Fenimore. And when the memory came swiftly back, I
wondered whether, after all, Gedge's story from first to last had not
been a malevolent invention. The man seemed so happy. Of course you
will say it was my duty to give a hint of Gedge's revelation. It was.
To my shame, I shirked it. I could not find it in my heart suddenly to
dash into his happiness. I awaited an opportunity, a change of mood in
him, an allusion to confidences of which I alone of human beings had
been the recipient.
Betty visited me as usual. We talked war and hospital and local gossip
for a while and then she seemed to take refuge at the piano. We had one
red-letter day, when a sailor cousin of hers, fresh from the North Sea,
came to luncheon and told us wonders of the Navy which we had barely
imagined and did not dare to hope for. His tidings gave subject for
many a talk.
I knew that she was seeing Boyce constantly. The former acquaintance of
the elders of the two houses flamed into sudden friendship. From a
remark artlessly let fall by Mrs. Boyce, I gathered that the old ladies
were deliberately contriving such meetings. Boyce and Betty referred to
each other rarely and casually, but enough to show me that the old feud
was at an end. And of what save one thing could the end of a feud
between lovers be the beginning? What did she know? Knowing all, how
could she be drawn back under the man's fascination? The question
maddened me. I suffered terribly.
At last, one evening, I could bear it no longer. She was playing
Chopin. The music grated on me. I called out to her:
"Betty!"
She broke off and turned round, with a smile of surprise. Again she was
wearing the old black evening dress, in which I have told you she
looked so beautiful.
"No more music, dear. Come and talk to me."