She came to dine with me the next evening: a dear way she had of coming
uninvited, and God knows how a lonely cripple valued it. She was in
uniform, being too busy to change, and looked remarkably pretty. She
brought with her a cheery letter from her husband, received that
morning, and read me such bits as the profane might hear, her eyes
brightening as she glanced over the sections that she skipped. Beyond
doubt her marriage had brought her pleasure and pride. The pride she
would have felt to some extent, I think, if she had married a grampus;
for when a woman has a husband at the front she feels that she is
taking her part in the campaign and exposing herself vicariously to
hardship and shrapnel; and in the eyes of the world she gains thereby a
little in stature, a thing dear to every right-minded woman. But
Betty's husband was not a grampus, but a very fine fellow, a mate to be
wholly proud of: and he loved her devotedly and expressed his love
beautifully loverwise, as her tell-tale face informed me. Gratefully
and sturdily she had set herself out to be happy. She was
succeeding.... Lord bless you! Millions of women who have married, not
the wretch they loved, but the other man, have lived happy ever after.
No: I had no fear for Betty now. I could not see that she had any fear
for herself.
After dinner she sat on the floor by my side and smoked cigarettes in
great content. She had done a hard day's work at the hospital; her
husband had done a hard day's work--probably was still doing it--in
Flanders. Both deserved well of their country and their consciences.
She was giving a poor lonely paralytic, who had given his legs years
ago to the aforesaid country, a delightful evening. ... No, I'm quite
sure such a patronising thought never entered my Betty's head. After
all, my upper half is sound, and I can talk sense or nonsense with
anybody. What have one's legs to do with a pleasant after-dinner
conversation? Years ago I swore a great oath that I would see them
damned before they got in the way of my intelligence.
We were getting on famously. We had put both war and Wellingsford
behind us, and talked of books. I found to my dismay that this fair and
fearless high product of modernity had far less acquaintance with
Matthew Arnold than with the Evangelist of the same praenomen. She had
never heard of "The Forsaken Merman," one of the most haunting romantic
poems in the English language. I pointed to a bookcase and bade her
fetch the volume. She brought it and settled down again by my chair,
and, as a punishment of ignorance, and for the good of her soul, I
began to read aloud. She is an impressionable young person and yet one
of remarkable candour. If she had not been held by the sea-music of the
poem, she would not have kept her deep, steady brown eyes fixed on me.
I have no hesitation in repeating that we were getting on famously and
enjoying ourselves immensely. I got nearly to the end: