“You stay here with Mary,” he said gently. “I’ll go away for a change—a
holiday. I need one. There’s an old uncle of mine in Scotland. I’ve
neglected him and his salmon-fishing shamefully for years. How I can
fish with one arm, heaven only knows. I’ve learned to do most things.
It’ll be a new experience. As a matter of fact, I should have gone last
month, if the temptation to wait for you hadn’t been so strong. It’s up
in the wilds of Inverness——”
She made feeble protest. It was she who drove him out of his home. Far
better for her to cut herself adrift from Medlow. But he prevailed. He
would go. In the meantime things might right themselves.
He departed the following morning, leaving Olivia to a new sense of
loneliness and unrest. She lived constantly in the tense moment,
catching her breath at the significance of its possibilities. Unbidden
and hateful the question recurred: if positions had been reversed; if
Blaise had been the lost husband and Alexis the lover, would Alexis have
let her go? Certainly not Alexis. And yet deep down in her heart she was
grateful that she had come scathless through the moment.
The little round of country gaieties went on and caught her up in its
mild gyrations. Mrs. Woolcombe deplored her brother’s absence. He had
been looking forward to the social life with Olivia, especially the
tennis parties. It was wonderful how he had overcome the handicap of his
one arm; the effectual service he had perfected, tossing up the ball
with his racket and smiting it at the dead point of ascent. It had all
been due to Olivia’s encouragement the previous summer; for till then he
had not played for years. But he had been sadly overworked. When a man
cannot sleep and rises up in the morning with a band of iron round his
head, it is obvious that he needs a change. It was the best thing for
Blaise, undoubtedly; but it must be dull for Olivia. So spake Mary
Woolcombe, unaware of kisses and tense moments.
Olivia said to Myra: “This is an idle, meaningless life. We’ll go back
to London and settle down.”
“Will life mean much more when you get there?” asked Myra.
“I can do something.”
“What?”
“How do I know? Why are you so irritating, Myra?”
“It isn’t me,” said Myra.
“What is it, then?”
“A woman wants a man to look after,” said Myra in her unimpassioned way.
“If she can’t get a man she wants a woman. I’ve got you, so I’m not
irritated. You haven’t got either, so you are.”
Olivia flushed angrily and swerved round in her chair before the mirror
on her toilet-table—Myra was drying her hair—as she had dried it from
days before Olivia could remember.
“That’s a liberty, Myra, which you oughtn’t to have taken.”
“I dare say, dearie,” replied Myra unmoved, “but it’s good for you that
somebody now and then should tell you the truth.”
“I want neither man nor woman,” Olivia declared. Myra gently squared her
mistress’s shoulders to the mirror and went on with her task.
“I wonder,” she said.
“I think you’re hateful,” said Olivia.